Hi Friends ,
Thank you all for the kind suggestions and support.
I totally agree that getting the face done should be first on my list .
My plan would be further sessions with my therapist as she is very kind and smart she is not a PhD and as not taken the optional sexuality studies to guide the transgender. I knew that before 9/27 , I had been seeing her for about 2 months and I just could not take my depression and repressed thoughts any longer , so I told myself on the 27th she will know.
I remember when we first met , I asked her , "do you plan to further your studies and get your Phd as well as the optional sexuality studies ?" her reply was thats the plan. I knew right then and there she would become the very fist person to know that I have an extreme dislike of myself , sorry this is for another thread.
But yes , plan is further sessions / facial hair removal / HRT / and the see what happens , I might be too old for SRS , but I have never had any major health issues and have never spent even one night in a hospital in almost 65 years !
So if I did , this not only would be my first surgery , but also my first hospital stay.
Anyway , another busy /crazy day ahead , thank you again for everything , and I am new !! and you make me feel so at home , you guy`s ...

Take care ,
Tappy