Hi, I'm nick, I'm 24 and working with transgender issues.
Not good with putting thoughts to paper but will try anyway.

I'll start with a little backstory, when I was 16 I got sick and found out I had a genetic heart/lung condition that causes hypertension in the main valve between the two organs. Anyway around about 18/19 I was looking into cures for the disease(which there is none), where I found a report on hormones might be a cure.

So from there I started looking into hormones, which is where I found the annierichards site and romance their was when I started to think I was different as the stuff on the site just kinda spoke to me and I was very interested in it.
I tried cross dressing at the time using my mother's things and that, then I did more research into hormones and found out that hormones can causes hypertension and seeing as I had quite bad hypertension and figured the path to transition at that time was impossible so I put all of this thoughts into the back of mind and stopped thinking about it

During the time after I stopped thinking about I had on again off again thoughts about me being a women and that, but was just odd thoughts as I was mainly worried about my health which got worse soon after my 22nd birthday and got placed on the transplant registry.
At the end of May 2015 I ended up having a double Lung transplant which I recovered from(and been in good health since), which after that the thoughts and fantasies started to come back about me becoming a women, there would be days where I just wished I would wake up the next day as a women.

Eventually the thoughts and me figuring out I had depression from other things, I talked too my GP about having depression and got recommended to a psychologist to whom I revealed too about my gender issues and since she has been helping me. I'm about to see a new physiologist at the same place who has more experience with gender, as my current one is going on maternity leave, which should be better for me.

Well I've might have rambled for a bit, but anyway I've been stalking this site for a few months and decided to post today because my psychologist has said the best thing for me to do is 'just do it' and not think about things as I will tend to over think which is not good for me. Also I live in Brisbane, Australia

I don't know anything about these medical issues, but I do know that depression and stress are very unhealthy in themselves. I had a different medical issue, and it was made dramatically worse by stress. I had a specialist tell me I shouldn't take estrogen as its could cause my problem to get worse (which is no doubt true, as women have it worse than men), but I just couldn't stop and eventually increased it instead. It turns out that reducing stress has actually made me healthier.

I'm in Sydney.

Hi Nick

   I'm Laurie Welcome to Susan's Place. (Hug) Come in and have a look around. find yourself a chair and get comfortable. I cannot comment on the medical issue as I have to leave such things up to the doctors myself. I try to fix computers and doctors call people like me when theirs do not work as it is what I know and they do not. By that same token, I go see the doctors when I need to because they fix people and I don't.
   Depression unfortunately hits our community hard as our issues with our differences are not easy to handle by ourselves. That is one of the reasons this site is here. It to provide us a place to come together and share what is bothering us and get support for those problems. Sometimes we run into so many of those problems that the burden of them takes a heavy toll and we need outside professional help. I did. Just the day before yesterday I was in my therapist's office for a session and telling him that I was feeling depressed and I had reached the point where I needed his help with it.  So Nick, you are not alone here. We welcome you and will help where we can. Come on in and join in with us and be at home here.

   I'll add some links and information below that can help you get more out of our site. Please take time to become familiar with them especially the RED one as we are always getting questions that are answered there.

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Quote from: AnonyMs on September 29, 2017, 11:56:52 PM
I don't know anything about these medical issues, but I do know that depression and stress are very unhealthy in themselves. I had a different medical issue, and it was made dramatically worse by stress. I had a specialist tell me I shouldn't take estrogen as its could cause my problem to get worse (which is no doubt true, as women have it worse than men), but I just couldn't stop and eventually increased it instead. It turns out that reducing stress has actually made me healthier.

I'm in Sydney.

I'm glad your healthier,
I should mention I no longer have the genetic disease as the double lung transplant has cured that, but I do have idiopathic intracranial hypertension(pressure in the optic disc) which being idiopathic it has no cause with the best way to cure is to lose weight(currently way overweight).
I currently have a fear of being told I can't go on estrogen(even though I'm still not sure atm) because of the transplant/medications and the eye problem, which is the main reason for not finding someone to talk to earlier.

Quote from: Laurie on September 30, 2017, 02:39:41 AM
Hi Nick

   I'm Laurie Welcome to Susan's Place. (Hug) Come in and have a look around. find yourself a chair and get comfortable. I cannot comment on the medical issue as I have to leave such things up to the doctors myself. I try to fix computers and doctors cal people like me when there's do not work as it is what I know and they do not. By that same token I go see the doctors when I need to because they fix people and I don't.
   Depression unfortunately hit our community hard as our issues with our differences are not easy to handle by ourselves That is one of the reasons this site is here. It to get us a place to come together and share what is bothering us and get support for those problems. Sometimes we run into so many of those problems that the burden of them takes a heavy toll and we need outside professional help. I did. Just the day before yesterday I was in my therapist's office for a session and telling him that I was feeling depressed and I had reached the point where I needed his help with it.  So Nick you are not alone here. We welcome you and will help where we can. Come on in and join in with us and be at home here.

   I'll add some links and information below that can help you get more out of our site. Please take time to become familiar with them especially the RED one as we are always getting questions that are answered there.

Laurie
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Thank you Laurie for for the links I'll definitely look at them to make sure I'm not breaking anything, and will probably post something later on

Hi Nick 

Welcome to Susan's Place    Glad to have you here, join on in the fun

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Hi Nick I'm MTF from Bedfordshire in the UK. There's lots of wonderful and friendly people here (except Laurie,  never trust her [emoji6]). Sounds like you've been through the medical mill a bit,  but I'm glad you've got some professional services to help with your gender discovery. X

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Hi Nick, welcome to Susan's!

Glad you hear you have mostly handled your health issues - I can only imagine how frightening some of that must have been and your concern for not making anything worse.  If you have access to an endocrinologist I suggest just talk to them now and find out.  I wouldn't read too much into online medical research - not all of it ends up Googlable and it's possible a specialist will have access to resources for cases more like yours that are not online. 

Really glad you joined, see you around!

Kendra

Quote from: MoonHuski on September 30, 2017, 03:02:12 AM
I should mention I no longer have the genetic disease as the double lung transplant has cured that, but I do have idiopathic intracranial hypertension(pressure in the optic disc) which being idiopathic it has no cause with the best way to cure is to lose weight(currently way overweight).
I currently have a fear of being told I can't go on estrogen(even though I'm still not sure atm) because of the transplant/medications and the eye problem, which is the main reason for not finding someone to talk to earlier.

If you get really stuck you could visit the endo Dr Hayes in Sydney. He really knows what he's doing - he has 3500 trans patients and 20 years experience.

Welcome to Susan's Place. Normally the levels can be maintained low enough that I would expect few problems with you starting HRT. One exception I can think of is if you are still on an anti coagulant as part of your post surgical care. With the right doctor I suspect you could still be given HRT but your levels might be maintained on the lower end of the dosage scale. That would still be enough to do the job however it might take longer for things to happen. If there is anything I can help you with, let me know.

Quote from: MoonHuski on September 29, 2017, 11:51:22 PM
Hi, I'm nick, I'm 24 and working with transgender issues.
Not good with putting thoughts to paper but will try anyway.

I'll start with a little backstory, when I was 16 I got sick and found out I had a genetic heart/lung condition that causes hypertension in the main valve between the two organs. Anyway around about 18/19 I was looking into cures for the disease(which there is none), where I found a report on hormones might be a cure.

So from there I started looking into hormones, which is where I found the annierichards site and romance their was when I started to think I was different as the stuff on the site just kinda spoke to me and I was very interested in it.
I tried cross dressing at the time using my mother's things and that, then I did more research into hormones and found out that hormones can causes hypertension and seeing as I had quite bad hypertension and figured the path to transition at that time was impossible so I put all of this thoughts into the back of mind and stopped thinking about it

During the time after I stopped thinking about I had on again off again thoughts about me being a women and that, but was just odd thoughts as I was mainly worried about my health which got worse soon after my 22nd birthday and got placed on the transplant registry.
At the end of May 2015 I ended up having a double Lung transplant which I recovered from(and been in good health since), which after that the thoughts and fantasies started to come back about me becoming a women, there would be days where I just wished I would wake up the next day as a women.

Eventually the thoughts and me figuring out I had depression from other things, I talked too my GP about having depression and got recommended to a psychologist to whom I revealed too about my gender issues and since she has been helping me. I'm about to see a new physiologist at the same place who has more experience with gender, as my current one is going on maternity leave, which should be better for me.

Well I've might have rambled for a bit, but anyway I've been stalking this site for a few months and decided to post today because my psychologist has said the best thing for me to do is 'just do it' and not think about things as I will tend to over think which is not good for me. Also I live in Brisbane, Australia

Darlin  I am here to tell you it is doable. I was born with a deformed heart valve that they replaced in "93". I am currently on 13 medications. Along with the valve there is also cardiomyopathy, congestive heart failure, Arterosclorosis, depression and tada, diabetes. I thought I was doomed and then I came here to Susans and some advice Dena gave me along with lots of information from HughE, convinced me it was worth a try. I had been trying since 1984 to get counciling but each time I went I chickened out and said I was stressed rather than explaining the sexual confusion I have had since 5 years old. After the comments I went and finally opened up. Within three visits I began HRT. Due to my pacemaker I am on blood thinners and thrombosis is one of the biggest obsticles and so my blood has alread been thinned out. I don't know maybe they thought at my age it does not matter. But the last year has been the best of my life. I now have mental clearity, no inner battles. I came out to everyone that matters and the stress I mentioned, it's gone. So if I never grew a breast or had my butt fat redistribute, it would be worth it. I hope you have as much success as I have. You do have one thing to your advantage. Your age..      I'm sorry everyone if you heard this before..ad nausium  Hugs to you all for giving me the opportunity.

Thank you everyone for the welcome

Quote from: Kendra on September 30, 2017, 11:04:02 AM
Hi Nick, welcome to Susan's!

Glad you hear you have mostly handled your health issues - I can only imagine how frightening some of that must have been and your concern for not making anything worse.  If you have access to an endocrinologist I suggest just talk to them now and find out.  I wouldn't read too much into online medical research - not all of it ends up Googlable and it's possible a specialist will have access to resources for cases more like yours that are not online. 

Really glad you joined, see you around!

Kendra

If I get the chance to see an endocrinologist I will bring it up, for the moment I'll bring it up with my therapist and see how that goes

Quote from: Dena on September 30, 2017, 02:59:35 PM
Welcome to Susan's Place. Normally the levels can be maintained low enough that I would expect few problems with you starting HRT. One exception I can think of is if you are still on an anti coagulant as part of your post surgical care. With the right doctor I suspect you could still be given HRT but your levels might be maintained on the lower end of the dosage scale. That would still be enough to do the job however it might take longer for things to happen. If there is anything I can help you with, let me know.

I haven't been on anti coagulation for about a year now, so that is some good fortune, and I'm also on what's considered low dose anti reject medications and still going strong with no signs of rejection. I'll also let you know if I need anything

Quote from: DawnOday on September 30, 2017, 05:25:30 PM
Darlin  I am here to tell you it is doable. I was born with a deformed heart valve that they replaced in "93". I am currently on 13 medications. Along with the valve there is also cardiomyopathy, congestive heart failure, Arterosclorosis, depression and tada, diabetes. I thought I was doomed and then I came here to Susans and some advice Dena gave me along with lots of information from HughE, convinced me it was worth a try. I had been trying since 1984 to get counciling but each time I went I chickened out and said I was stressed rather than explaining the sexual confusion I have had since 5 years old. After the comments I went and finally opened up. Within three visits I began HRT. Due to my pacemaker I am on blood thinners and thrombosis is one of the biggest obsticles and so my blood has alread been thinned out. I don't know maybe they thought at my age it does not matter. But the last year has been the best of my life. I now have mental clearity, no inner battles. I came out to everyone that matters and the stress I mentioned, it's gone. So if I never grew a breast or had my butt fat redistribute, it would be worth it. I hope you have as much success as I have. You do have one thing to your advantage. Your age..      I'm sorry everyone if you heard this before..ad nausium  Hugs to you all for giving me the opportunity.

While bad that you had a valve defect, what you said has given me a bit more hope for a positive response and not a negative one, and I'm glad it has worked for you so far

Moon,   I have been extremely blessed. I was supposed to live five more years. That was thirty years ago. In that time I raised two children, moved to Seattle. bought two houses, and celebrated 35 years with my wife. I now have a granddaughter, I no longer have any secrets to mess with my mind. I have been liberated from a life of depression from what I have come to learn is dysphoria.  I learned so much in a short period of time as I never thought it possible to realize my destiny and the subject of so many prayers.