Holy crap Soli!!! It's so awesome to hear from you again!!!

Oh and thank you everyone else I honestly can say I feel pretty happy right now, yeah I still have to deal with parents but I'll let time be the judge and hopefully they'll just see that I'm happy and both mentally and emotionally sound but if not I'm actually no longer afraid of getting kicked out after being homeless during the summer I not afraid (although it does suck) of that petty threat anymore.
And I'll share my experience with being on hrt for four months:
There is breast growth not significant yet but enough to the point it's best to wear a bra
Skin is getting softer
I think my hair is thicker and it has gotten darker
Some fat redistribution hips are developing my thighs are a little thicker
Sex drive is getting low I no longer have random erections
Emotions oh they're there lol I cry ever so more easily now like earlier today I got a thank you message from someone I had helped find a clinic for hrt in Oklahoma and her message was so touching I had to hold back tears. Hrt isn't for the faint of heart xD
That's the changes I noticed so far and I welcome the coming months