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MTF started HRT 6 days ago - Encouraged Euphoric Worried and IMPATIENT

Started by Marcieelizabeth, October 19, 2017, 11:24:54 AM

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Marcieelizabeth

Hi all!

So day 5 on HRT and I am so happy to finally take this step. I am definitely emotional about starting this journey - I did not know how I would feel when I did, but right now it is sort of euphoric whether because of the hormones or knowing this is a big step toward becoming me!?

I am encouraged because my wife toughed it out and came to the endocrinologist with me - which was very hard for her to listen to me telling the doc what I wanted...it made it more real I think. 

I am worried because I do not think I can hold all this in and I am not out with anyone but a few friends and my wife so far. I want to be me full time, but not there yet - I have important people to tell in person first and much to do to really transition. so much to do...not sure I can hold it in!!!

I am as you can tell impatient! IMPATIENT IMPATIENT IMPATIENT!! UGH I want it all now.  I now know who I am - really am - and do not want to be the me I have been anymore, I do not want to hide anymore, I need to slow down think of consequences and steps and pace all of this.  As well I know I need to enjoy where I am - I will never be here again - my second puberty and the opne I always wantedis happening and I do not want to miss it...but I guess I feel like I have waited so long already - so get er done?! 

What are or were your early experiences with starting HRT?

Love and hugs! 

Marcie
:-*

First memory of cross-dressing - age 8 - 1967
Marcie Since 6-17-17   :D
Out to wife 6-27-17  :D :D
Started HRT 10-13-17  :D :D :D
First time completely me at therapy on 10-31-17 <3
Started Finestrade on 11-1-17 <3
Estradiol and Spiro to therapeutic levels on 12-4-17
Went out totally as Marcie with friends sans beard 3-24-18
Estradiol increased second time 3-27-18
Out to both sisters 2-3-19

...it makes me smile to know its me, fearful about losing the good things in my life, anxious about every single step, doubting my resolve, determined to stop living a lie,  VERY hopeful for the future as myself, Marcie, and I am thankful to have this safe place
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Jailyn

You can go as fast as you want with this and as long as you are comfortable do so. Yes, certain things you have to still wait on like surgeries and what not. I moved quite quickly as far as changes I can do before surgeries and all. You should change as you feel it is right. Which my be after you come out to those that you love and care for. This is when I started to live full-time and do other moves once I came out to those I felt needed to know. I understand the impatience!!!! I have it too like having my beard gone today, my breasts at a size that I am looking for, the body fat redistribution, and etc. I feel you on it, but alas we have to be patient in it all and find strength amongst friends and family. Our support should be our ally in it all. You have a great journey to go as all of us here, good luck and be brave!!!!
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