Hi guys!
Just wanted to come on here and share the changes/effects that have been happening to me during my 6 months of HRT and compare to any other t girls that would like to share!
1. The biggest and most obvious change has been my breast growth. I have gone from flat male chest to a solid A cup in a matter of 6 months, and besides the physical breast change, the constant nagging soreness and tenderness is definitely something that has persisted.
2. The second biggest change has been the rounding and filling of my face, especially in the area of my jawline. This change has DEFINITELY helped my passing abilities to a great extent, and given my face a natural, feminine look and shape. Couldn't be happier with these results so far!
3. This change has to do with the emotional side of HRT; mood swings/ random emotional episodes were very frequent throughout the first few months, and have settled since then, but not sure if/when they will return (hopefully not as bad as they were
)... Around my third month, I began having problems with my relationship due to my experiencing a slight change in my sexuality and becoming sexually curious. I went back to my hometown to be with family periodically to clear my mind and try to re-find myself, and this was a very tough time for me, my fiance, and family and friends (everybody was concerned about what was going on with me and knew it wasn't the real me). Just know that therapy is definitely something that anyone transitioning should look into, as HRT can really affect your brain/emotions, and even alter your sexuality, as I experienced. Hormones are no joke, and I would absolutely recommend having someone to talk to to separate delusions/reality and keep you steady. There were multiple times where I considered doing stupid things to myself and I am now so glad that I had so many supportive people to get me through all of that and talk me out of it. I am now feeling like myself again and happy.
4. Another subtle change I have noticed is some fat redistribution, not only to my face as I mentioned above, but also to my stomach (sadly) and a bit in my butt, legs, and upper arms (with slight muscle reduction, but hopefully more to come as I have just hit my 6 month mark and this is supposedly when one is to experience muscle loss).
5. The last big change I have noticed is, above all, my happiness, comfort in my skin, and overall confidence as my true self. This is something I can only hope for every single trans person out there. It feels so amazing to be able to go to events, parties, etc. and not be shying away in the corner, scared to speak, or to make a move, feeling like nothing I do or say will come off to people in the way that it does in my mind. I can finally be me, be social, and relax and have fun as the person I have always been in my soul, without having to fear and think about every move I make. At the start of my HRT, this change was not yet in full effect yet... In fact, I am just now beginning the trek uphill to what I can see ahead as my peak of happiness and comfort, yet I am still feeling on top of the world and so comfortable in my skin, finally excited to wake up and do things out in the world everyday! It may not happen instantly, but I want every trans person to know that you will get there eventually, so stay optimistic, do what you have to do, and only look forward. Please love yourself and stay patient. I know it can be very hard, trust me, but here I am, happy as ever, as my true self. It happened for me, though I was so doubtful at the beginning. That's only normal. It will happen for you. Stay strong and surround yourself with loving and accepting people.
And that's all for now! So grateful to have this forum to be able to share and communicate with other trans people going through the same thing as I am. Much love to everyone! I wish you all great happiness in your transitions. Will update as more changes start happening! <3
~ Alexis <3
Before starting HRT ^
6 months HRT ^
