Well hope do you do?
I'm just a curious George that has been creepin on the site for about a year now.
I haven't ever really posted anything until today so I'm just going to say that I'm technically new to the site... Aaaa cuzz I am :p
My name is Gabriel, but I prefer to use the handle Blackstone as my digital moniker.
About two years ago I came to the conclusion that I wasn't happy and the feeling kept getting worse. For a long time I've felt that I couldn't really understand why some things were happening the way they were or why I was feeling the way I was.
That allowed me to take a stance and accept that I was down and I found a reason to get back up again.
I realized that all this time I have always been trying to live up to others expectations of what and who I was supposed to be and behave. I wasn't being myself and was always waiting for someone else's approval as I'd asking for their permission to move forward.
I could see it in myself, in my creativity and in the way I interacted with other people. It was rough and I had just about enough of it.
Since then I have myself permission to not need the permission of other when making a decision, and I let myself explore what it means to be me.
I am trans, I am a trans woman. It's funny cuz little over two weeks ago I couldn't even bring myself to say these words to myself.
One of the things that allowed me to understand what I've learned so far is the amount of sort I've reviewed from my family in rough times which still haven't ended). With the help of my support group I've been working on what we now understand to be inattentive ADHD and anxiety.
The therapy and medication has helped a lot so far, and it has cleared my mind off it's anxts. In that clarity also came a little drop off life. I am able to accept myself now and work on any issues with my head held high. And I know some times will still be rough but I mean... There's always a good of red
That is all everyone, I just wanted to introduce myself and let you all know I'm here and happy to help in any way I can.
I have started to log some of my thoughts on my transition and if you'd like to have a read the link is in my signature.
Love you all!
Bie!
