I had my appointment with the psychologist/mental health professional today (which was the first step after telling my doctor I thought I might be transgender). It actually felt good speaking to someone about how I'm feeling inside - I've spoken to people on here and by text, but to actually vocalise it was definitely helpful.

I talked about how I was naturally drawn towards transgender women before I found out. How just 'dressing up' and wearing make-up wasn't enough. How intense my dysphoria can get at times, where all I want to do is come out of the closet and start living full time. How much I look at cis-gendered women and get jealous that they're biologically female and I'm not. How bad work can make me feel about myself - dressing male, working in an all male environment, being referred to as male. How I wouldn't want to live anymore if there were no option of transitioning and eventually becoming a woman.

I've been referred to a psychiatrist, which will take about 4-6 weeks, I'm happy that things are progressing, it's beginning to sink in that this is going to be a very long process, and I need to be very patient, I'm not even 100% sure yet in my mind - somehow

Amber, I'm glad that the worst case scenario did not play out with your friend.

Davina, pics are mandatory!!!

Michelle, enjoy your freedom from the cath

Siobhan, wow, huge step, congrats!

Bari, I did that activity with a trans friend recently--it's fun to hear people say, "THAT'S you?!" It makes the changes feel even more real.

Nina, you are at the beginning of a long journey, but it sounds like you are ready. Give yourself the time you need, sister.

Love to all my sisters out there! Checking this thread is the best part of my day

Quote from: p on November 10, 2017, 11:34:30 AM
Love to all my sisters out there! Checking this thread is the best part of my day

Me too! Reading about the happy days of all our sisters here just makes me happy. In fact, that's what made me happy today! So meta! 

This was yesterday, but still...

A little background: Many years ago, in a playful mood, my wife bought me thong underwear. I loved them and wore them until they were too ragged.

Last week I got a coat in Burlington Coat Factory and noticed that they also had intimates. It got me thinking, "could I"?

Yesterday I went in and bought a three pack. I took them home, took a shower and put a pair on. They fit. They felt comfortable. I checked, my tuck works in them. All I needed was a bit of a razor trim. I'm wearing a pair right now!

Being able to rock a thong is a real dysphoria killer! I bet I could manage a mini-skirt, too!

:

April 22, 2015, the day of my first face to face pass in gender neutral clothes and no makeup. It may be months to the next one, but I'm good with that!

Being transgender is just a phase. It hardly ever starts before conception and always ends promptly at death.

They say the light at the end of the tunnel is an oncoming train. I say, climb aboard!

Think outside the voice box!

Quote from: Dee Marshall on November 10, 2017, 12:22:27 PM
This was yesterday, but still...

A little background: Many years ago, in a playful mood, my wife bought me thong underwear. I loved them and wore them until they were too ragged.

Last week I got a coat in Burlington Coat Factory and noticed that they also had intimates. It got me thinking, "could I"?

Yesterday I went in and bought a three pack. I took them home, took a shower and put a pair on. They fit. They felt comfortable. I checked, my tuck works in them. All I needed was a bit of a razor trim. I'm wearing a pair right now!

Being able to rock a thong is a real dysphoria killer! I bet I could manage a mini-skirt, too!

Honestly, it's 99% of what I've been wearing myself. I know people complain about them not being comfortable or being unable to tuck, but I've found neither to be true in my case for whatever reason. I just like the feel a lot, and it is definitely a dysphoria killer. All it takes is looking down when I'm going to bed and just feel insanely feminine.

I'm seriously considering a Brazilian because of these panties.

Next up, thigh high socks and a mini!

But I need boots first.

:

April 22, 2015, the day of my first face to face pass in gender neutral clothes and no makeup. It may be months to the next one, but I'm good with that!

Being transgender is just a phase. It hardly ever starts before conception and always ends promptly at death.

They say the light at the end of the tunnel is an oncoming train. I say, climb aboard!

Think outside the voice box!

Quote from: Bari Jo on November 09, 2017, 11:33:27 PM
I started organizing pictures of myself from my phone and I'm seeing a lot of pictures from before accepting myself.  I really like where I'm headed!

I can relate to that, although nobody gets to see all of the pictures of me!

I was feeling particularly dysphoric at my last therapy session - the therapist assured me that the thing I was feeling dysphoric about wasn't something other people would notice.  She reminded me that I've made a ton of change in a short time, to just be patient with the rest, it's happening and it's obvious it is happening.  I went home and took a bunch of pictures of myself from the last few months, organized them by date, and clicked through them - and I could see that progress, which is really awesome.

I had the final stitches removed, following my trach shave, today!
All still a little swollen but healing well!
Another step...
So happy!!!!     
x

This is one of my favorite threads to read
Finally finished epilating (almost) all my body today! It took me for-everrr, few hours over 3 days, because it really hurts... Now I'm hoping it will be less time to maintain since I did it all to start. And I'm hoping HRT really kicks in and stops the growth all together! The pain will have been worth it either way...

     This happened last saturday but it makes me happy thinking about it today We had a successful first fundraiser for our newly formed GSA in my home town many great performers a great time was had by all and we raised a little money my new profile pic was taken there

    bobbisue

Quote from: bobbisue on November 10, 2017, 07:22:46 PM
     This happened last saturday but it makes me happy thinking about it today We had a successful first fundraiser for our newly formed GSA in my home town many great performers a great time was had by all and we raised a little money my new profile pic was taken there

    bobbisue

Bobbisue, love the name.  My parents probably knew yours.  Let's get a bigger pict of you in there, you are soooo tiny!

Bari Jo

I came out to a friend, i was so nervous but it went fine [emoji3]

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Quote from: Bari Jo on November 10, 2017, 07:33:34 PM
Bobbisue, love the name.  My parents probably knew yours.  Let's get a bigger pict of you in there, you are soooo tiny!

Bari Jo

Bari Jo I doubt our parents met despite the deep south sound of my chosen name the only thing I live south of is the arctic circle and only 6 degrees at that  as for a bigger pic I am planning on doing that when my youngest daughter comes out here to help me with my hair make up and truck  that is the first time I have been called tiny in 40 years I know thats not how you meant it but let me enjoy the moment 

     bobbisue

Last night my wife and I went shopping .. with a list! .. for a few necessities. She is enjoying having me along and I find that I really enjoy it as well. It used to be one of the things that I avoided the most. Well, we window-shopped a bit. That's a big mistake. It was too much fun pointing things out and comparing .. we over-spent our budget, so much for the list :/

The good, besides just enjoying our time together, we got matching night clothes.

Quote from: Faith on November 11, 2017, 09:15:53 AM
Last night my wife and I went shopping .. with a list! .. for a few necessities. She is enjoying having me along and I find that I really enjoy it as well. It used to be one of the things that I avoided the most. Well, we window-shopped a bit. That's a big mistake. It was too much fun pointing things out and comparing .. we over-spent our budget, so much for the list :/

The good, besides just enjoying our time together, we got matching night clothes.

That's adorable!! 
I remember hating shopping, now I can't get enough, even just window shopping!   

Last night I had dinner here in Tokyo with another girl from Susan's.  I came away feeling nothing but loved and supported in our journeys.  I love that we trans ladies (and men) are everywhere around the globe, and feel the same kinship with one another.

Bari Jo

I had my very first male-fail today!!! A friend & I went to see Thor Ragnarok (again), and since it's in town I was in boy-mode. While sitting in the theater waiting for it to start, a couple walks in, and the man says 'Looks like this is a guy flick!', since it was mostly men there. The woman looks around & says 'No, there's 2 other women here.' - there was only one other woman besides me & her. 
As much as I'm trying to not let the cat-girl out of the bag in-town, it still made me feel great. Besides, I didn't recognize anyone in the theater anyway.

😊 Woo hoo, the first is the best. That feeling is incredible.
My first was at a theater too. When I got my snacks, they turned and asked if someone could get "her" popcorn. It's been a couple years but I haven't forgotten.
Congratulations more will come. 😁

There were a lot of women in the theater when I went to see Thor Ragnarok. Chris Hemsworth in Thor get up with short hair....  um, when my boyfriend asked if I wanted to go I was like, "Well, if you really want to." I am not always proud of myself but in my defense I do like superhero movies. A little. Some of them. 

Lets be honest half the audience was only there to oggle hemsworth [emoji3] my local cimema serves beer so we were ah........little bit rowdy

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Well, that IS one of the reasons I didn't mind seeing it again....