This is something i'm wondering if anyone else here struggles with. The thing is, I do know that I want to be with a guy eventually, it is something that I often think of. I am still pre op, and the only thing I have had done surgically is a bilateral orchiectomy. Most things like the thought of sex with a guy right now just kind of shuts me off, like it's something I am really not ready for yet. Just the thought of intimacy with another person is already difficult for me.
So I just don't know, I often see guys out in public places that I feel attracted to, but relationships with people in general is something that is very difficult for me. There's this wall that just seems to go up.