Greetings, everyone.

It has been a while since I last posted on this forum, but that is mainly due to being so busy; I apologize. I wanted to make this post because ever since I started hormones, I have had a deep desire to become more and more feminine; I go to any and all lengths to feel more feminine rather than just looking like a woman. Ever since I was a child, this desire has burned in me, but its intensity has increased dramatically since I came out as transgender one year and seven months ago. I have been on HRT for over two months now and I have noticed many subtle changes; I think, perhaps, it is the impatience in me wanting breasts to grow faster, curves to form quicker and the mentality of a man to truly and fully dissipate. I am frustrated with my male member and hate it more and more each time I have to see it. It also doesn't help that my current living situation and transportation arrangement prevent me from living as I would like such as going shopping, getting my nails done and going out and doing things.

I am not sure what I would do without the presence of my husband and his interaction with me; I know he will always make me feel more like a female. We are currently attempting to relocate to a new residence where we can be in town, but saving that kind of money takes time and dedication. We are also getting my spouse's truck on the road soon (hopefully) so we won't have to rely on our roommates all the time; I hate not being able to go out when I want and I know it bothers my husband as well. Eventually, I will receive the gratification I desire, but I must wait.

As a closing note, I would ask you, the audience, if any of you feel the same way and how your experiences and desires differ or are similar to my own; this is something that has clung to my brain for many, many months and it has been itching to be put into writing. As trans women, we experience the same things as biological women, but we suffer more hardship for it. On that note, let me remind you to be strong and stand tall; you are a warrior; there are very few people who could go through the changes you are experiencing. You are strong and you are a woman.

Sincerely,

Emily, The Dark Queen

It is debatable whether we share experiences with biological women. For passing individuals they certainly share a woman's social experiences, but practically none of her biological experiences. In that sense we have it easier since we don't have to worry about things like menstruation or unplanned pregnancies. For non-passing individuals their experience is that of a transgender woman and not a cis woman and, yes, such an experience is certainly far more stressful.

The longer I was on HRT the less I felt I needed femininity to feel better. At this point I dress like a punk and don't wear makeup and pass and it's good enough for me

I agree with Allie. I feel as my hormones have regulated through medication and surgery that my need for ultra femininity eased.


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Quote from: Allie24 on October 27, 2017, 01:18:01 PM
but practically none of her biological experiences. In that sense we have it easier since we don't have to worry about things like menstruation or unplanned pregnancies.

Well, except for those who would prefer to have those things, not sure that really counts as easier.

It has eased for me also since starting hormones.  I guess because things are starting to change. I wish Imwas further along and more feminine for sure, but it has eased since starting.