Over this past week I have had a lot of anxiety over our first T.D.O.R. vigil I perhaps foolishly offered to speak at the ceremony  I have been fretting about this ever since and was thinking I never felt such anxiety about anything before I started transitioning suddenly it was staring me in the face all my life my anxiety and my fear have always manifested themselves as anger this being one of the male approved emotions I am losing this shield and having to learn to deal with my fear and anxiety  If anyone has any advice about how to handle these feelings I would love to hear it I have spent 57 years hiding behind my shield of anger but now it lies at my feet broken beyond all repair

    bobbisue

Big hug! How did it go? I got "volunteered" at my first TDOR for the cup/candle detail. It's a tough day, but being a part of it is rewarding.

Hugs, Devlyn

This is one time when emotions can't be a bad thing. I hope it has gone well for you. X

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   I got volunteered by opening my big mouth things went very well I made it through and only broke down crying once that was during the reading of the names of the fallen I hope that someday we will not have any names to read though I doubt I will live to see it It was a small ceremony but significant as it was the first in our small community we will be in the local paper I am hoping it will let any one who is feeling alone in our area there is a place for them

   bobbisue

Quote from: bobbisue on November 20, 2017, 11:00:35 PM
   I got volunteered by opening my big mouth things went very well I made it through and only broke down crying once that was during the reading of the names of the fallen I hope that someday we will not have any names to read though I doubt I will live to see it It was a small ceremony but significant as it was the first in our small community we will be in the local paper I am hoping it will let any one who is feeling alone in our area there is a place for them

   bobbisue

Well done,  and thank you. X

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Quote from: bobbisue on November 19, 2017, 06:27:35 PM
     Over this past week I have had a lot of anxiety over our first T.D.O.R. vigil I perhaps foolishly offered to speak at the ceremony  I have been fretting about this ever since and was thinking I never felt such anxiety about anything before I started transitioning suddenly it was staring me in the face all my life my anxiety and my fear have always manifested themselves as anger this being one of the male approved emotions I am losing this shield and having to learn to deal with my fear and anxiety  If anyone has any advice about how to handle these feelings I would love to hear it I have spent 57 years hiding behind my shield of anger but now it lies at my feet broken beyond all repair

    bobbisue

Hope it all went well.