Hey all,

Been on HRT for 1 month now. Every day morning I take my med without hesitation, but during the rest of the day I doubt what I'm doing. I keep asking myself "Do I really want to do this?" and "Is this really for me?" and other such questions, and then by the time it's time to take my med at night, I just take it without second thought. Was anyone else like this when they first started HRT? I only really feel confident about pursuing transition when it's time to take that next bi-daily step.

Thanks!

~Rebecca

Been about three months for me now between my own efforts and HRT. As changes become visible I feel validated and uneasy at the same time. Some days I feel 100% confident some days I feel like I'm making life hard on myself. All I know is that I'll never go back, and its a process that changes many underpinnings of life. Family, Job, Community, Self image. Its not wonder its a bit scary.

Hold to the vision you had when you started and it will all work out well in the end.

Yes.

When I first started I was on Spiro for two months then started E.  My experience was while on Spiro alone I felt better. But when I started on E my life started to change.  My wife became even more distant.  Friends started to call a little less frequently (to me at least, apparently not to my wife) and I questioned everything.  I STOPPED.

A very long story short (go back and read some of my posts from July-Oct 2016) I almost ended everything.  That's when my wife and I both realized that it's not a choice and if I didn't transition I'd be dead.

BTW - I'm obviously still around.  I restarted both Spiro and E and in a few days, I felt better and exactly 2 months after restarting I was at peace with everything.  That's not to say that there aren't those days when I question things, but I think back on how miserable I was and know I'm doing the right thing.

For some perspective - I was never mad or upset that I was assigned male at birth.  I just knew that my mind didn't match and my body image was that of a female.

The joke goes: I like girls so much, I decided to become one.

Before quitting atleast think once why did you started!
Good wishes for you. Keep on holding the rope.

Hugs and love,
Cedie

I don't think you would have started this if you didn't really think it was right for you. It's not gonna be easy. No one likes going through puberty and we get to go through it twice. I hopefully get to start this coming march. You gotta be strong, and don't doubt it. Yes it's a big step in your life, and change can be scary and exciting. But if you surround yourself with people that support and love you, everything will be okay. I have a group that I talk to online filled with a huge group of different people. All that can't wait for me to start transitioning. I've already been asked to be a brides maid. But most importantly you got to have faith in yourself. This is something you are doing for yourself, no one else. And it's something you deserve. And don't let anyone tell you otherwise, even yourself.