I miss this place.  I wish I could stay on for hours like I used to, but my job has us working so much. 

I wonder if I can make it to over 20,000 posts within the next two years?

Quote from: King Malachite on December 19, 2017, 05:26:10 PM
I miss this place.  I wish I could stay on for hours like I used to, but my job has us working so much. 

I wonder if I can make it to over 20,000 posts within the next two years?

Hi Malachite,

    I'm Laurie, a newcomer compared to you and several others here. Good to see you return after being MIA for awhile. Why wouldn't you hit 20k in two years? Sounds kinda slow to me in light of me hitting 5k in a year. I'm sure it won't take you that long to do it.

Hugs,
   Laurie

Quote from: Laurie on December 20, 2017, 10:05:03 AM
Hi Malachite,

    I'm Laurie, a newcomer compared to you and several others here. Good to see you return after being MIA for awhile. Why wouldn't you hit 20k in two years? Sounds kinda slow to me in light of me hitting 5k in a year. I'm sure it won't take you that long to do it.

Hugs,
   Laurie

I still haven't hit 5k in like nine and a half years of being registered here. >.<

Some folks post meaningful posts while others are just full of monotonous blather

If you push hard enough, it will fall over!

Randi and I both have seasonal affective disorder so it's hard to push through it but if we just hold on a little longer it'll be January and maybe we'll be a little better.

The spy who came in from the cold in the War Between the Sexes.

Wonder if I could read for the rest of my life and just pretend that my problems don't exist.

Also, I wonder if girls notice me looking at them, if they do, I wonder what they think, I'm not a creep, I don't wanna get into their pants, I want to be them

I swear hair knows when it's been shaved, so it can grow back extra fast and annoying, like. But if hair is dead, how does it know?

I just shaved 4 hrs ago. Feels like bloody sandpaper already. So you've got a fast metabolism for that, but nothing else? Grrrrreat.

I'm a homeowner again?

I'm a homeowner, again!

I'm a homeowner?  For the first time?  There it is on the deed:  Michelle Jean P...

It's her first home!

I've actually decided to stop my transition since in 7 years I've gotten nowhere with it. And surprisingly I'm ok with it.


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Quote from: Michelle_P on December 22, 2017, 09:54:32 AM
I'm a homeowner again?

I'm a homeowner, again!

I'm a homeowner?  For the first time?  There it is on the deed:  Michelle Jean P...

It's her first home!

Awesome Michelle. Must be fantastic to see her name on the deed. Great milestone. Love the positivity. [emoji106][emoji106]


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Feel like a coke addict. I just wiped all the estrogen dust out of the pill bottle with my finger. 

Dev. the Estro junkie LOL 




*Runs Away*

What am I thinking? Well the same few things keep running through my mind. My roommates are mooches not all their fault atm we are a tourist village and with no snow means no money, I am the only one with an hourly job so I am taking that burden, it that has hurt me financially drained my savings again. I haven't been able to get my car fixed, missed my last 3 therapy appointments don't have anymore scheduled. And i really want to start hrt but that seems like it gets further and further away, and I am not sure if I can even afford it unless I quit my addictions. And clothes I need some clothes.

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Quote from: RavenMoon on December 22, 2017, 11:38:58 AM
I've actually decided to stop my transition since in 7 years I've gotten nowhere with it. And surprisingly I'm ok with it.


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Hey! You're from nyc too? What do you mean you got nowhere with it?

Dev, you sure it was just the bottle? Lol joking I have gone digging for pills I drop in weird places [emoji23]

Michelle, that's such a great feeling! Happy for you!

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I think I might be delving into depression eating, nearly finishing off my 2nd plate of frozen fries

Quote from: dist123 on December 23, 2017, 05:54:49 PM
Hey! You're from nyc too? What do you mean you got nowhere with it?

Yes, Staten Island. [emoji4]

Well, I was married for 10 years and got divorced back in 2011. 

After I had moved into a new place, and had time alone with my thoughts, I started getting a lot of dysphoria. So I thought this might be the time.

I was a bit on the fence due to my age (I turned 60 this past November).... I wasn't nuts about being a middle aged man, so how would I feel about being a middle aged woman? I'm very vain. Lol. But a friend of mine who is fully transitioned pointed out that I'd probably regret not doing anything later in life.

The problem was I was unemployed at that point. And the divorce and getting a new apartment used up my savings.

To make a long story short, I started my own business which was keeping a roof over my head, but that's about it. Then business got slow and I got evicted. I was then homeless for two years.

Now I rent a room and was working part time (I'm a graphic artist). I left that job for a full time job in a different field and just got laid off Friday... after one week! ☹️

So I just never had the funds to even start HRT. Plus I need my facial hair removed and FFS.

At this point I'm throwing in the towel. Plus it was impossible to meet anyone to date. There's two women I sometimes go out with, but my very androgynous look always bothered them. So that's another reason.

[emoji17]


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Quote from: RavenMoon on December 24, 2017, 10:17:39 PM
Yes, Staten Island. [emoji4]

Well, I was married for 10 years and got divorced back in 2011. 

After I had moved into a new place, and had time alone with my thoughts, I started getting a lot of dysphoria. So I thought this might be the time.

I was a bit on the fence due to my age (I turned 60 this past November).... I wasn't nuts about being a middle aged man, so how would I feel about being a middle aged woman? I'm very vain. Lol. But a friend of mine who is fully transitioned pointed out that I'd probably regret not doing anything later in life.

The problem was I was unemployed at that point. And the divorce and getting a new apartment used up my savings.

To make a long story short, I started my own business which was keeping a roof over my head, but that's about it. Then business got slow and I got evicted. I was then homeless for two years.

Now I rent a room and was working part time (I'm a graphic artist). I left that job for a full time job in a different field and just got laid off Friday... after one week! [emoji852]️

So I just never had the funds to even start HRT. Plus I need my facial hair removed and FFS.

At this point I'm throwing in the towel. Plus it was impossible to meet anyone to date. There's two women I sometimes go out with, but my very androgynous look always bothered them. So that's another reason.

[emoji17]


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You have to do what you feel is best for you. Have you tried 311 or the transgender law center for resources? I recently contacted them about housing because I'm worried where I'll go when I have to move in the end of January. I'll let you know when I hear from them and I can ask them about employment resources too.

I'll private message you!

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That I screwed up by coming out to my kids


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I worry too much sometimes