Jayne, I know we're hours apart, no worries there. Although, you could make the effort to stay up once in a while to make a more timely appearance .. just kidding.
I caught up in your thread, I don't have much to say there. Just keep your head up and move forward .. and try not to hit your boobs.
For me, Today is starting out well. I'm in a good mood, more upbeat. Tired. I was out playing music last night and didn't get home until after 10. It was after 11 before bed .. arrghh, I'm too old for that. My bedtime is at 10 after relaxing for an hour.
I'm kind of in a hold pattern, therapy in a week, baseline blood test in a week, follow-up Dr visit in 3 weeks, then we'll see. Bit of a struggle staying positive, I go through bouts of 'am I doing the right thing' and 'I look like crap'. Ah well, each day is a new day. Maybe I'll get all prettied up tonight for when the wife gets home.
Weight is still holding around 170, even after a binge meal on Sunday. BEEF, ugh, We both learned that we've been on this diet long enough not to re-introduce beef even for one meal. We don't miss it so that is off the table (literally
). At least 20 lbs more to go before I can think about re-introducing some of my favorites that'll put a little weight back on.
Therapy, I am not one that is comfortable with talking to others about my problems. I've always held it in and worked it out on my own, for better or worse. Recently, since the whole 'coming out' thing, I've been talking with my Wife more and more, trying to tell her anything and everything, even if it's repetitious. To have that and to have her listen means more than any therapist, in my mind ... um, yeah, in my mind
My hope is that therapy will be less about digging out more issues and more about confirmation and settling any uneasiness between the Wife and I about what's been going on. She's doing well but maybe something is lurking that therapy will draw out. Oh, and for the Dr. so he has a therapist note to feel better about when (not if) we move forward.
I still don't feel girly, nor do I feel manly. Maybe that'll be my norm. I have a preference for feminine things right now, it's just doesn't make me feel girly. It just makes me feel comfortable. You know what I mean?
So, there you go, a morning ramble.
Have a glorious day Everyone,
Faith