Its xmas eve, family in the house, tree up, advent calenders polished off, eating pate ans drinking wiskey, even brought the crackers today but this year feels so so different.... doesnt feel like xmas at.all. so weird.
Think im putting it down to thinking about my own stuff and not just going along with the herd, things definatly seam strange right now. Its like i dont know what to expect from tomorrow even though i know exactly what is going to happen. Lol reading that back sounds mad.
Maybe its because ive been content the last few years buying games on the steam sale, this year its just a day... i know im not going to get what i really want.. im still going to be male me tomorrow.
How odd a change of perspective changes thoughts and feelings that you could always rely on before. The goal posts have definatly moved this year.
Time for a 2018 plan me thinks
