So today i finaly got the chance to try some stuff all together , i used to try feminine clothing sometimes but i was always keep thinking that what i was doing was wrong, but i almost never tryed to make my face to also look feminine...
But today i shaved my facial hair, i wore a wig , and i kinda did a little make up , though i know nothing about it and the only 2 ive been able to get until now is lipstick and mascara...
i wore a pretty dress , and heels , i looked my self in the mirror and i couldnt believe that i was looking so feminine !...i mean , i was almost passive , i just needed some more make up and to make my eyebrows feminine...because i couldnt change things that can change my man looking,i still go outside as a man......
Last months i kind of finaly accepted that im different and started to trying to look more feminine sometimes , i used to do it before but i always had regrets and telling myself that im a freak..i dident knew back then much about trans people...
But i think i may be inbetween male and female, non-binary..., its pretty strange..i dont have a problem with myself going out as a man (the most times) , at least for now , but i wish there is going to be a day that i will be able to step outside the door as a pretty girl...and not be able to, is what makes me feel depresed and not so much the fact that i go right now out as a man...
I just wanted to share this experience because i feel like this day is an important one for my "journey"...
Thanks for reading this

We each have to deal with our inner persona and free it.  The more I travel this route the more I discover about myself.  For example, trying on make-up, nail polish, clothes. 

Part of my "Self-Discovery" was that I was a woman and whether or not I'm good looking or a troll shouldn't matter because it's in my self that I need to be okay with if that makes sense.

I recently started HeaRT and can't wait to go to bed at night so I can get up in the morning and take the medication.  I also have begun dressing more fem with jeans, bra and tops and I have 3 holes in each ear and if it were for my sinus issues I'd have my nose pierced too.

I find or get no sexual excitement in wearing the clothes and I'm becoming more comfortable each day.

I think from my personal point of view that becoming comfortable in one's own skin is the key for passing.

The first time i saw myself as a girl, i was terrified of getting caught, yet there was a rush, and this rush got me aroused, i didnt like that i felt aroused by it, and i was thinking of ways to keep me feeling aroused about it, it made me feel like just a Cross Dresser at the time i didnt like that, im not saying there is anything wrong with that, but it didnt feel like me although i enjoyed how feminine i felt

I also tried make up, which i enjoyed, no arousal to that  but again it made me feel like just a cross dresser

And other stuff went down so i decided to cease anything to do with this

Quote from: D on January 06, 2018, 09:14:28 PM
So today i finaly got the chance to try some stuff all together , i used to try feminine clothing sometimes but i was always keep thinking that what i was doing was wrong, but i almost never tryed to make my face to also look feminine...
But today i shaved my facial hair, i wore a wig , and i kinda did a little make up , though i know nothing about it and the only 2 ive been able to get until now is lipstick and mascara...
i wore a pretty dress , and heels , i looked my self in the mirror and i couldnt believe that i was looking so feminine !...i mean , i was almost passive , i just needed some more make up and to make my eyebrows feminine...because i couldnt change things that can change my man looking,i still go outside as a man......
Last months i kind of finaly accepted that im different and started to trying to look more feminine sometimes , i used to do it before but i always had regrets and telling myself that im a freak..i dident knew back then much about trans people...
But i think i may be inbetween male and female, non-binary..., its pretty strange..i dont have a problem with myself going out as a man (the most times) , at least for now , but i wish there is going to be a day that i will be able to step outside the door as a pretty girl...and not be able to, is what makes me feel depresed and not so much the fact that i go right now out as a man...
I just wanted to share this experience because i feel like this day is an important one for my "journey"...
Thanks for reading this

Good to hear it worked out well for you this time, i hope it continues in the future too. Wish you the best!

The first time I saw myself as a girl was about ten years ago. I had been wondering how I'd look as a female and decided to try on some dresses and other female clothing at a thrift store. I was seeing a girl then and she wouldn't understand my dysphoria, Nor would she understand how I felt when I was was wearing female clothing. I felt that it fit that I fit (if that makes any sense) flash forward to November 2017. I was single so I made the decision to transition. I stopped presenting as male and go full time as female. 

I first saw myself as a girl when I was 7 and my Mom had put me in my sisters costumes at my request. Then she put a little make up on me. Then she proceeded to tell me how cute I was. This really only made me aware of something I had kind of guessed already. I like girls. I like the way they dress, smile, talk, walk, smell, laugh, feel compassion, play jacks, jump rope, hop scotch and nurture. That was a little under 60 years ago. It took me that long to finally acknowledge the person I have always known was hidden inside.  I know, but I fear the people who criticize but don't know. Beating up trans people is not something new. But, it is ignorance that sustains it. Unfortunately the ignorance begins, of all things, in the church. The place we were brainwashed into thinking was a warm hug to society. Where the "All are welcome" sign, actually means "All white people are welcome except you, and you, and you. I am so happy you are on the road to discovery. If I may offer some advice? Look for a local support group. I use mine as a safe place to express myself, and the neighborhood of Capital Hill is accommodating with it's display of rainbow flags and crosswalks. So nice to find a seat in a public place without the attendant stares of the suburban crowd. As I assimilate more and more I am getting more and more comfortable. I must praise my medical support team for their attentiveness. It just so happens they are also in Capital Hill and makes it easy to attend the therapist in the afternoon and hang around for a couple hours until our Wednesday night meeting begins. A year and a half ago I met my first transgender woman. Since then I have found 1700 others at the Gender Odyssey convention.  I heartily recommend attending next August. It is so fabulous. Very informative and a great way to make new friends.

Quote from: DawnOday on January 07, 2018, 02:06:57 PM
I first saw myself as a girl when I was 7 and my Mom had put me in my sisters costumes at my request. Then she put a little make up on me. Then she proceeded to tell me how cute I was. This really only made me aware of something I had kind of guessed already. I like girls. I like the way they dress, smile, talk, walk, smell, laugh, feel compassion, play jacks, jump rope, hop scotch and nurture. That was a little under 60 years ago. It took me that long to finally acknowledge the person I have always known was hidden inside.  I know, but I fear the people who criticize but don't know. Beating up trans people is not something new. But, it is ignorance that sustains it. Unfortunately the ignorance begins, of all things, in the church. The place we were brainwashed into thinking was a warm hug to society. Where the "All are welcome" sign, actually means "All white people are welcome except you, and you, and you. I am so happy you are on the road to discovery. If I may offer some advice? Look for a local support group. I use mine as a safe place to express myself, and the neighborhood of Capital Hill is accommodating with it's display of rainbow flags and crosswalks. So nice to find a seat in a public place without the attendant stares of the suburban crowd. As I assimilate more and more I am getting more and more comfortable. I must praise my medical support team for their attentiveness. It just so happens they are also in Capital Hill and makes it easy to attend the therapist in the afternoon and hang around for a couple hours until our Wednesday night meeting begins. A year and a half ago I met my first transgender woman. Since then I have found 1700 others at the Gender Odyssey convention.  I heartily recommend attending next August. It is so fabulous. Very informative and a great way to make new friends.

Agree about a lot of religion, but here's a pastor from Texas that's asking the right questions:


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The first time I looked in the mirror and saw a girl I cried tears of joy. It was very powerful. I just had a few adjustments, hair, a little makeup, and a dress. I walked into the bathroom and instantly smiled .. OMG that girl inside me is real! She's me! That was a long time ago... but, I'll never forget it. She is me, I am her. Resistance is futile. 

I was in college in 2013. Had just crossdressed for an event with the LGBT club I had helped set up on campus and had a lot of fun. As I was looking at myself in the mirror afterward, something unexpected happened. When I looked, I didn't see an awkward crossdressing guy. Instead I saw a cute androgynous girl looking back at me. Two thoughts occurred to me at that point. I wanted to get to know her better and I wanted her to get out and experience the world herself.

I didn't know what it all meant back then, but I'm figuring it out now. And yes, the girl in the mirror is finally getting out and expressing herself to the world.