Hello........I'm an 19...frm india.........i was bout 12 yrs old when i first felt the urge to cd....i tried my moms inners for a week and got ashamed and left it........then suddenly after 6 yrs...i again got the urge to start crossdressing......this time i found many like me .........the thing is......it is not always that i feel like a girl......but when i sincerely wish i were a women...i enjoy my life as a guy........but still when i feel like a women..its amazing.......but the thing is i dont always feel like it.....sometimes i wish i never was one...soo i try to supress this feeling ......but somewhere at the back of my mind i know......i miss the girl inside me............I'm not sure if i can use the words here...but when i masturbate i feel as a women.........and after doin ..its normal.......back to men.......im really confused..what shud i do???shud i supress this feeling?

I don't know much about your situation, so I can't really give any advice.  Are you able to afford a therapist or counseling to help you think things through?  That would be the best bet.  It sounds like you have guilt issues to work through.  Just don't jump into anything without knowing yourself and what you want.

Lia

hey ur from india which city ur frm?

Sounds like me when I was your age.  And 10 years later, and 20 years later, and 30 years later, and and and...

Eventually, 40 years later, I discovered that I was transsexual and became female,  Many who are like you and like I was remain occasional crossdressers who obtain some sexual thrill from women's clothing.  Very natural, very normal. 

Suppress your feelings?  No, they will only come back stronger.

But, as suggested, you might want to explore your feelings with a gender identity counselor.

No Guilt!

Robyn

Hmm.......actually I'm just a student....soo not able to afford any councelling......and i'm not sure if there r any in india..........

Posted on: March 08, 2008, 07:19:39 AM

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i also have one thing to tell.............i hav a school friend..a guy......and since i've begun to crossdress again.....i'm having a keen interest in this guy..........i dunno why.......i'm not gay....i dont like other guys......but he is special.....i many times feel emotionally and physically attracted to him....that's what fears me....mebbe....i might have a girly tendency in me..........do pour in some replies bout me...plz......