My current name is Shane(I am unsure of names but please call me Shay in the meantime), I am MTF and my pronouns are she, her. I am 31 years old, I have a wife, child, and dog. I work at the local Library as the manager. My wife found out that I was trans (there is another post so I won't go into detail here) in January of this year. The circumstances almost ruined our relationship.
Anyways I wanted to do a post to more properly introduce myself. I have dealt with feelings of being in the wrong body for a long time. I don't think I can recall how old I was because I didn't pay attention to my age much when I was younger. If I had to put an age range of when I first started realizing it would be maybe 5 or 6. I do recall at an early age being dressed up as a girl when I stayed over with some friends. The friends were girls and thought it would be cute to dress me up. Anyways once I was dressed up I remember them showing me off to their mother... The response was less than pleasant. I remember feeling ashamed... After that, it was kind of a blur as far as what I can remember. I do recall wishing there was a machine that would change me into a girl and I was actually pretty open with some people about it but I don't think they remember since we were pretty young. I remember liking both "girl" and "boy" toys. I didn't actively play with barbies but I did like playing with the horses and animals that were part of the Barbie line. I feel like I was able to get along with females more than males. In fact, for the most part, I feel like that is still the case. I feel awkward around males more so than females. Anyways I suppressed my feelings a lot during my teen years. Every now and again I would start thinking about being a girl but would ultimately tell myself that it was wrong. I use to think I was gay for a time but for the most part, I liked girls. This really confused me because I did know any transwomen that were attracted to cis women and I thought I was alone. anyways I continued to deny these feelings for a long time until last June when I decided it was time to just embrace the feelings and whatever was meant to happen would happen. During this time there were some not so good things that happened. Long story short I cheated on my wife with another trans person. I am not proud of this and I know I did wrong. My wife found out I cheated and shortly after that she found out I was trans. We have been working on our relationship for the past month and it seems to be going positive. I am in the process of seeking a therapist which seems to be a little more difficult than I had anticipated.
I am sure there is more I can include and I am sure I could write a whole book about it but I wanted to keep it somewhat short and add to when needed.
