Quote from: Aspiringperson on March 05, 2018, 10:18:48 PM
As a teenage boy in high school I was a runt with very little bulk, very little muscle and a girlish face and voice to just about match.  I was miserable when I was around the other male students that were becoming men with bulk, muscles, height, and a deep voice.... and I was the butt of their jokes and their bullying.   

In my very early 20's in college things only improved very slightly and I started thinking that the situation is not going to get any better and perhaps that is when my first thoughts of transitioning became a reoccurring event.  I was miserable and I unfortunately procrastinated and waited another 13 years to finally go to my doctor and counseling to start the process to begin HRT

My miserable male body now became an ideal vessel to be transformed into a female, and with the powerful assistance of HRT my transformed body has definitely been changed into a a convincing female body.... and my mind agrees. 

I am certain that most people that transition ask themselves this question... "Why did I wait so long?"

Your last sentence kinda hit me, "Why did I wait so long?"  I see those words as an affirmation that the process has begun to impact and I haven't gotten that far along.

I this very second, I feel I'm kinda of in limbo, features starting to change but not really.  Obviously my breasts are and that was confirmed by my daughter.  Facial features, maybe but being bald sorta doesn't help that.

Quote from: natalie.ashlyne on March 03, 2018, 05:14:27 PM
The first time I really thought about it was 11 years old. From there on till I was 32 I kept trying to hide it. Now I am 34 and fully accept  it.

Pretty similar here, still trying to hide it, but I'm not 34 for another couple months!

Really I'm only hiding it while trying to stabilize my life a bit, changes are happening though, won't be too long before it'll be pretty silly to try to keep  hiding.

I was 5 or 6, when my dad told me about boy stuff like shaving, chest hair, and the boy talk..... ya know? it just felt really wrong to me, i think i may have even said that i didnt want that or something LOL, i didnt know i was trans that wasnt until i was like 14 or 15 after i had my first boyfriend i wanted him to treat me like a girl i never expressed that to him or anyone, i hid myself for years because i had to, im starting to accept it more now but i still need some time with it i think years of denial and shame isnt easy to give up

Plus i tried to do the guy thing for awhile i never really dated much but i got large arms and legs from going to the gym, i had to cus i had knee trouble, but my arms are long, and i got tall, then for along time i stopped trying to grow my hair out like a girl even (which is 1 thing im gonna do now)

I have had fantasies about becoming female since I was 12, but I never seriously questioned my gender until I was about 27. I ended up assuming I had to be completely MTF then and found that wasn't making me feel better, so I stopped trying to figure that out until I was around 30; that's when I started accepting I was nonbinary and could legitimately present and identify as both genders.

When I was around 8 I realized I loved women's clothing, and knew that I wanted to wear them all the time, but didn't then when I was 57 I looked in the mirror and it became impossible for me not to know I was Transsexual.  I was always a woman, and I just denied, hid, would not let it out, not sure what it meant, was just not aware who I was...but I now know it is true and real, and I am who I am and always have been.  I wish I knew it earlier so some of the physical changes due to testosterone were not so hard to try to reverse, and so I felt happier for more of my past life, I was not unhappy, I have a great wife and kids, but there is a Joy I know now that I did not then!

I had an inkling in Kindergarten.  I dreamt of being a girl off and on my while life, but always considered it just that...a dream.  At 39, exhausted from fighting it, I jumped in head first.  It's been a year now and I couldn't be happier.

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