Thank you so much
I hope too . My personal situation is complicated and my mood was often dark after i arrived in the country i live . Thaila d is much much nicer regarding people behaviour . I never felt the traumatic relivings there as i feel them here when meet people .
I missed dilation maybe three times and sometimes i realize i don t have a safe place so i can enjoy this surgery that was everything for me yet people made everything harsh or stain . I didn t mean my life to be the war it is . Also sometimes it felt people made my joy to die , induced their ideas about my own feeling and wishes and target .
Sometimes i might be clenched with attacks i relive and i say i won t have sex anyway . I only had once for me in all life . But i wished to feel how i felt before people made ptsd much worse . I used to feel the vagina in perception and owning it , hoping and being kind . Then i fell in darkness because it felt i ll never reach it , i got abused many times , i have quite severe ptsd now , it s hard to see a fairy tale .
The clinic is very polite and helpful . I stayed five days in hospital and the rest in hotel . The clinic helped me with their own drivers to go to consultations .
The surgery wasn t painfull , in many ways it was the easiest thing i encountered . I felt so eased and positive , i also could eat right after and i had no bad feel after i woke up .