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Started by Roll, November 08, 2017, 09:52:07 AM

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Roll

Having such a hard time focusing lately, at least compared to what I used to do, and I'm not why. Something has definitely changed with my OCD tendencies, and the timing with HRT is interesting. Probably just hormones trying to settle, but it's not a feeling I ever had even when I was on medicines actually for OCD.
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Northern Star Girl

Quote from: Roll on March 08, 2018, 03:54:00 PM
Having such a hard time focusing lately, at least compared to what I used to do, and I'm not why. Something has definitely changed with my OCD tendencies, and the timing with HRT is interesting. Probably just hormones trying to settle, but it's not a feeling I ever had even when I was on medicines actually for OCD.

@ Roll:  I usually have trouble focusing early in the morning and especially late evening.  Those are the wrong times to write checks and pay my bills for sure.!!!!

...Obviously you feel that something has changed regarding your OCD and focusing problems... I certainly hope that you have made plans to talk to you doctor about this issue.
 
...Different meds and your own changing hormones with your HRT regimen could maybe be the cause... or maybe not, but a good discussion with your doctor is in order in my opinion.

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Cassi

Ellie is my Point-Woman seeing how she's a few weeks ahead of me HRT wise and I always, always, keep an eye on her status because more often than not I'm not too far behind.

Seeing how I haven't experienced much of the "mental and emotional" stuff that comes with HRT as yet, other than my music and dancing, I'll keep my brain engaged to see what happens over the next few weeks.

Ellie, say safe and sane a little, pleeze. :)
HRT since 1/04/2018
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Bari Jo

Hey Ellie, I echo the thoughts to speak with your doctor.  I can say for me, I can focus fine on e and Spiro.  However finasteride abd progesterone both give me kind of a foggy feeling.  I only take those at night because of it.

As always for school too, caffeine is your friend.  And coffees and sodas will be lifelong friends because of this:)

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11/6/17 - came out to sister, best day of my life
9/5/17 - formal diagnosis and stopping DIY in favor if prescribed HRT
6/18/17 - decided to stop fighting the trans beast, back on DIY.
Too many ups and downs, DIY, purges of self inbetween dates.
Age 10 - suppression and denial began
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Cassi

Quote from: Bari Jo on March 08, 2018, 05:13:04 PM
Hey Ellie, I echo the thoughts to speak with your doctor.  I can say for me, I can focus fine on e and Spiro.  However finasteride abd progesterone both give me kind of a foggy feeling.  I only take those at night because of it.

As always for school too, caffeine is your friend.  And coffees and sodas will be lifelong friends because of this:)

Bari Jo

Do you still have Laurie locked in your attic?
HRT since 1/04/2018
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Roll

Caffeine really doesn't do much for me, never has. Actually, I mentioned that in my little side bits about me doing the genetic tests that I found out I have a gene associated with extremely fast metabolism of caffeine. So kind of cool but annoying when I could use that jolt. ;D I used to be so confused as a kid why people said not to drink Coke before bed, it never kept me up at all.

But yeah, I'm not sure what's up. I think some it is just pure exhaustion. I am going back to my GP (not HRT one) in about a week and if it is still going on like it is now, I'm definitely going to talk to him about it. I am due for hematologist as well, maybe he can do some more in depth blood work but I've had so much done I doubt anything would show.
~ Ellie
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(I made the s lowercase so it didn't look as much like PMS... ;D)

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8/30/17 - First Therapy! The road begins in earnest.
10/20/17 - First coming out (to my father)!
12/16/17 - BEGAN HRT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
5/21/18 - FIRST DAY OUT AS ME!!!!!!!!!
6/08/18 - 2,250 Hair Grafts
6/23/18 - FIRST PRIDE!
8/06/18 - 100%, completely out!
9/08/18 - I'M IN LOVE!!!!
2/27/19 - Name Change!

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steph2.0

Quote from: Roll on March 08, 2018, 08:57:29 PM
But yeah, I'm not sure what's up. I think some it is just pure exhaustion. I am going back to my GP (not HRT one) in about a week and if it is still going on like it is now, I'm definitely going to talk to him about it. I am due for hematologist as well, maybe he can do some more in depth blood work but I've had so much done I doubt anything would show.

You might ask to have them test for TSH levels. I have hypothyroidism and feel tired most of the time, even with a daily dose of levothyroxine.


- Stephanie


Assigned male at birth 1958 * Began envying sister 1963 * Knew unquestioningly that I was female 1968 * Acted the male part for 50 years * Meltdown and first therapist session May 2017 * Began HRT 6/21/17 * Out to the world 10/13/17 * Name Change 12/7/2017 (Girl Harbor Day) * FFS With FacialTeam 12/4/2018 * Facelift and Lipo Body Sculpting at Ocean Clinic 6/13-14/2019 * GCS with Marci Bowers 9/25/2019
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Sarah_P

I feel tired most of the time, and have issues focusing on any one thing (my mind wanders all the time). The caffeine in sodas actually makes me more tired, somehow. Tea caffeine can help keep me up, but only marginally helps with focus.
--Sarah P

There's a world out there, just waiting
If you only let go what's inside
Live every moment, give it your all, enjoy the ride
- Stan Bush, The Journey



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steph2.0

Quote from: Sarah_P on March 09, 2018, 07:33:19 AM
I feel tired most of the time, and have issues focusing on any one thing (my mind wanders all the time).

Yes, this! Something occurs to me, and I know I'd better write it down before I forget. By the time I grab a pen and paper, something else occurs to me and shoves out the original thought. I've never been good at that kind of thing, but lately...

What were we talking about?


- Stephanie


Assigned male at birth 1958 * Began envying sister 1963 * Knew unquestioningly that I was female 1968 * Acted the male part for 50 years * Meltdown and first therapist session May 2017 * Began HRT 6/21/17 * Out to the world 10/13/17 * Name Change 12/7/2017 (Girl Harbor Day) * FFS With FacialTeam 12/4/2018 * Facelift and Lipo Body Sculpting at Ocean Clinic 6/13-14/2019 * GCS with Marci Bowers 9/25/2019
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Sarah_P

Quote from: Steph2.0 on March 09, 2018, 07:41:22 AM
Yes, this! Something occurs to me, and I know I'd better write it down before I forget. By the time I grab a pen and paper, something else occurs to me and shoves out the original thought. I've never been good at that kind of thing, but lately...

What were we talking about?

- Stephanie

Exactly! One of the first things I added to my purse when I started carrying one was a notepad & a pen. If I have an idea, or someone tells me about someone/thing, then I need to write it down before it's gone. As long as I remember that I actually have a notepad & pen with me.  :icon_dizzy:
I'm doing some online coding lessons, and it's so hard for me to just zero in and focus on the challenge I've been given. With no distractions, eventually I can, and really get into it, but one thing distracts me and -poof-, my focus vanishes. It makes me feel like I could never get through an actual college course.
--Sarah P

There's a world out there, just waiting
If you only let go what's inside
Live every moment, give it your all, enjoy the ride
- Stan Bush, The Journey



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Cassi

Quote from: Sarah_P on March 09, 2018, 04:58:33 PM
Exactly! One of the first things I added to my purse when I started carrying one was a notepad & a pen. If I have an idea, or someone tells me about someone/thing, then I need to write it down before it's gone. As long as I remember that I actually have a notepad & pen with me.  :icon_dizzy:
I'm doing some online coding lessons, and it's so hard for me to just zero in and focus on the challenge I've been given. With no distractions, eventually I can, and really get into it, but one thing distracts me and -poof-, my focus vanishes. It makes me feel like I could never get through an actual college course.

Since I talk to myself quite frequently, I just asked my other-self to write it down.  Too much trouble for me to pull out a pen and paper :)
HRT since 1/04/2018
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CincySixx

This post is grand <3
Like cant i just watch your life <3
Lol

Congrats btw

<3
Cincy

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Cassi

Quote from: CincySixx on March 09, 2018, 05:45:32 PM
This post is grand <3
Like cant i just watch your life <3
Lol

Congrats btw

<3
Cincy

Yes, isn't it???
Kinda like watching a movie with earplugs on and sub-titles
Seriously, I watch what Ellie says because it's given me insight into things that have been happening to me.
HRT since 1/04/2018
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Roll

Quote from: Cassi on March 09, 2018, 05:48:05 PM
Yes, isn't it???
Kinda like watching a movie with earplugs on and sub-titles
Seriously, I watch what Ellie says because it's given me insight into things that have been happening to me.

Just wait a few weeks until when the wings start growing.
~ Ellie
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I ALWAYS WELCOME PMs!
(I made the s lowercase so it didn't look as much like PMS... ;D)

An Open Letter to anyone suffering from anxiety, particularly those afraid to make your first post or continue posting!

8/30/17 - First Therapy! The road begins in earnest.
10/20/17 - First coming out (to my father)!
12/16/17 - BEGAN HRT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
5/21/18 - FIRST DAY OUT AS ME!!!!!!!!!
6/08/18 - 2,250 Hair Grafts
6/23/18 - FIRST PRIDE!
8/06/18 - 100%, completely out!
9/08/18 - I'M IN LOVE!!!!
2/27/19 - Name Change!

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Cassi

Quote from: Roll on March 09, 2018, 08:49:47 PM
Just wait a few weeks until when the wings start growing.

Wings?????
Oh, nevermind, that makes sense, wings will go with the halo that's sprouted atop me head :)
HRT since 1/04/2018
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amberwaves

Quote from: Cassi on March 09, 2018, 09:35:23 PM
Wings?????
Oh, nevermind, that makes sense, wings will go with the halo that's sprouted atop me head :)
Too bad the halo is being held up by the horns.
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Roll

My halo is broken, it's leaking some sort of viscous fluid that I'm pretty sure is radioactive.
~ Ellie
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I ALWAYS WELCOME PMs!
(I made the s lowercase so it didn't look as much like PMS... ;D)

An Open Letter to anyone suffering from anxiety, particularly those afraid to make your first post or continue posting!

8/30/17 - First Therapy! The road begins in earnest.
10/20/17 - First coming out (to my father)!
12/16/17 - BEGAN HRT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
5/21/18 - FIRST DAY OUT AS ME!!!!!!!!!
6/08/18 - 2,250 Hair Grafts
6/23/18 - FIRST PRIDE!
8/06/18 - 100%, completely out!
9/08/18 - I'M IN LOVE!!!!
2/27/19 - Name Change!

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KarlMars

Hope you're doing well, Roll! I only read about 2 pages back. I just wanted to say Hi!  :D

Roll

Quote from: KarlMars on March 10, 2018, 07:02:45 AM
Hope you're doing well, Roll! I only read about 2 pages back. I just wanted to say Hi!  :D

Hey! :D I'm doing a lot better than I was last week for sure, I think I am back on an upswing!
~ Ellie
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I ALWAYS WELCOME PMs!
(I made the s lowercase so it didn't look as much like PMS... ;D)

An Open Letter to anyone suffering from anxiety, particularly those afraid to make your first post or continue posting!

8/30/17 - First Therapy! The road begins in earnest.
10/20/17 - First coming out (to my father)!
12/16/17 - BEGAN HRT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
5/21/18 - FIRST DAY OUT AS ME!!!!!!!!!
6/08/18 - 2,250 Hair Grafts
6/23/18 - FIRST PRIDE!
8/06/18 - 100%, completely out!
9/08/18 - I'M IN LOVE!!!!
2/27/19 - Name Change!

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