So, I went in for a levels checkup appointment today. A few months ago, I was told I needed to abstain from alcohol for a month (I had already abstained from it for a month at that point after having a really rough few months prior FULL of way too much drinking).. I was told to abstain for another month because my liver enzymes came back very high (around 237, where normal levels are within the 0-40 range). I abstained, and when my results came back a month later, my liver enzyme levels had gone back down to completely normal. Well, today, they were back up again, to 240 this time. I slipped up and had ONE drink before my birthday, a little over a month ago. I haven't had plans on drinking again since that night, so we will see if those go back to normal again after a longer period of abstaining, which I am really hoping they do, because I don't want to have to lower my dosage, or worst case, quit spiro.
My second worry is that I was told that my prolactin levels are high, which I am aware is common for people on HRT. However, my doctor wants to make sure that HRT is causing the high levels of prolactin and that it is not a brain tumor, the only other possible cause of high levels (which I am positive I don't have). She wants me to go off estrodiol (I am on (dosage removed) a day) for a month, at which point I will get an MRI of my brain, and can resume estrodiol immediately after. I am nearing the year mark of being on HRT, and have just recently really started seeing rapid changes kicking in very fast, if . not daily. I look more feminized than I did 3 weeks ago, and the changes just keep coming. I have never been happier or felt more myself, and I honestly hate the fact that I am going to have to stop estrodiol for a month RIGHT at the point that everything is really starting to happen and my sense of self is really starting to shine. Now, I have looked into this and now do know that it can take up to 3-6 months for changes to reverse, and was told by my doctor that the most I would see is a slight increase in growth/thickness of facial hair, which I didn't really have to begin with. So, I am probably overthinking this whole thing, but I also did some research and found out that the correct way for blood to be taken to measure prolactin levels should be about four trials within a 45 minute period, with the patient laying down, relaxed, and the trials should test whether or not the levels decline as the patient becomes more relaxed/ is in different states of comfort. This site also said that lack of sleep/fear of needles or blood could drastically raise the levels of prolactin. The day I was tested, I was on about 3 hours of sleep (I couldn't sleep because I was THAT nervous to get blood drawn the next day), and therefore was far more terrified and tense during the blood draw. I am almost positive that all of these factors, plus the fact that I am on HRT, are the reason for my high prolactin levels, and that I will be stopping estradiol for no reason. This only irritates me and stresses me out more. I talked to my mom tonight and she said she would call the doctor tomorrow and see if there is a way around this or if I will be able to get my blood re-drawn the correct way.
Am I overthinking? Should I try to find a way around this, or am I being reasonable? Especially regarding the fact that I have no symptoms/nothing that would leave me to have a brain tumor, and it's pretty obvious that, high prolactin levels being common for people on HRT, that the hormones are what is causing the high levels. Do you guys think there will be a major regress of changes? I am mostly worried about losing the roundness/ softness of my face (I know this takes a long time to happen and therefore will take just as long to revert, however, again, I have noticed a lot more rounding/softening and overall feminizing of the face and body since even a few weeks ago, and don't even want to revert back to that point). It feels like I will be taking steps back for no reason, and right when I'm finally starting to really see rapid changes and am getting to a point of true happiness and comfort with myself, which is why this bump in the road sucks even more.
Both of these things combined have started really eating at me tonight, and I am just so stressed and scared right now. I may be overthinking, but I now just can't stop thinking, "what if something happens in the future, medically, or for whatever reason, that forces me to stop HRT completely? What if I have to stop my transition at some point?" I think the fact that I have been happier/ more myself than ever lately is why I am suddenly so terrified to for whatever reason LOSE my transition, the most important thing in my life, and all of the happiness/this life that I have acquired. It feels like I have everything to lose now, and if I had to give up my transition at any point in the future, I really don't know what I would do with myself. I could really use any advice or comfort, and would like to know if anyone else has gone through this feeling of being scared to lose their transition.
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