i couldn't find a place to post my art and i really dont need a full on blog at this time... if this is a bad place please feel free to move it.(^_^)


sometimes my art is just art with little meaning... but lately it always seams to reflect my heart.

im currently fighting with my ichiban bestu furendo.


this is something that i drew at work today.... we were REALLY SLOW ..

That's awesome, I'm always in awe of people with artistic talent that can draw like that.

Good drawing Beth. I use to do a lot of drawing and painting, especially Native American medicine wheels.  Use to love writing children's short stories as well. You know you can paint pictures with words?

Cindy

Beth hon, you are an amazing artist. I am jealous as all hell!

thanks....

Quote from: cindybc on March 18, 2008, 02:20:58 AM
Good drawing Beth. I use to do a lot of drawing and painting, especially Native American medicine wheels.  Use to love writing children's short stories as well. You know you can paint pictures with words?

Cindy

im not so good with painting with words... which i think comes across well in my posts. lol. im much better with images... 

Posted on: March 18, 2008, 09:39:14 PM

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still slow at work... im a flat rate mechanic which means im not making any money... pretty typical this time of year....uggghhh.

anyway... this happened today....   the drawing...not the event...lol


its kinda a fore-memory...(i made that up haha)...  im hoping to go to NY to see the yankees before they tear down yankee stadium...   trip is scheduled for sept... might be an important game...

Hi, beth06,  Well you do some really good work.  Are you planning on taking your imagination to go into a career as an artist at some future date? Well, I tell you what, you know when you are going to draw something, you have an image you see in your mind. Where do the ideas come from to manifest into images that come to the conscious mind? Of course these ideas are born from good and fertile imagination. I am not trying to talk you into anything here, I just wish to spend a little time with you here is all. I promise "girls scouts honor." 

Anyway, I just want to share a little something with you. OK, now you can see  from imagination and this is where all the different parts are assembled on paper until a piece of art is born. You see it in your mind and you draw it. Well, you can learn how to use that same method of source born from imagination to typing or writing. If I hadn't learned how to use imagination to write or draw back those many years ago it just might be I would not be typing this post here this evening.

Cindy       

Love your work Beth, the second one especially.

Warms my heart.

cindy... i know exactly what you are saying.. i can feel a few different stories.. have for some time.. growing inside.. the crazy thing is... is that as i fought  gid and my true feelings my artwork suffered... to the point where i pretty much gave it up for good... art is kinda like gid in that it keeps pushing me from the inside. this need to be an artist pushed me to accept who i really am and deal with gid... im not sure how, but they are connected.

yes! yes!yes! it is my hearts desire to do this as a career. hopefully... i can complete TWO transitions....  hahaha. thank you for all your support, you are wonderful.^_^

sd.. thank you very much... the second one is much happier.. by far. the idea for it came before the first one... and really... at least with these two pieces... there is a lot of me in them and a lot of emotion... im really hoping for more like #2

really neat Beth I love the style of your sketches.  The best that I can draw are stick figures.  But there good ones.   

Audrey

Hi beth06,  Of course your work is part of you, especially this work that is born of imagination it's  also your heart that makes it or completes it in the end. I guess I do know a bit about feelings I am an Empath. Can you imagine that? GID, empath, and by-polar, "hee, hee, hee." but you see I have found a way to stabilise all three into one entity. Any way you do beautiful work and please just keep going, Your imagination your art and both can be used to manifest a world of wonder, A wonderful way also that can be used for an escape when this world becomes to overwhelming to your senses.

Cindy

thanks audrey

thanks cindy. i guess that not only are these particular sketches from my imagination and heart, but also depict some of things that i have been going through..  so, there's this someone and we were fighting a little about  transition.... said someone felt that i was going about things the wrong way..... and was very distant... this is relatively  new to said person..say about 3 months. well... anyway said person is EXTREMELY IMPORTANT to me...     and i was very worried about loosing this person.... .. .  . .


. .  . . .....so to swiftly change the subject, but not completely...

Hi Beth, nice to see you again, truly it is. I feel an energy from you that I can feel. It might be that I have traveled a similar journey as you. I tried so any things, painting, drawing, writing stories of fascinating enchanted worlds and some as well as some stories whose setting were of this reality. I guess these were a means of retreating from this reality. But it was getting lost in my art and book writing. They were another wold for e to go explore and actually in my mind, I was actually experiencing the lives of my main characters which of course were girl characters.

At this time I did not know or realised that I was fighting a beast from within. This beast was named GID. Well I listened to the inner voice that spoke to me in my mind and began the long hard road of transitioning. Do you realise that after some time on HRT, your mind thinks and feels differently. I came to love this new feeling within, it became very precious to me especially after touching the inner child.

SRS was the end result from the long road of transitioning where I finally came to be the real me within. this is, as closely as I can describe it. This, to me was the most wonderful experience that I have ever had in my life. Now I have emerged into the real world as my true self and once again found some useful things to contribute and share with others out there in the real world. Your perception of the world will be much different in a lot of ways, that you will see. Sadly you are quite correct, your passions now may just end up being just so much dust swept away by the wind. Mind goes through many changes with time.

At any rate it may be for the best that you put your art aside for now, and consetrate on completing transition. Well you may just skip this post if you wish to do so. There was much more involved so I just kept to the main points.

Cindy   

i NEED art... it is what i want to do during and after transition.... i really want to leave my current job... but i dont want to be a starving/transitioning artist just yet... 

GID and art are very similar in my life... as i suppressed GID i also lost art...  that is why i started this thread.... i have done more art in the last 4 months since accepting GID then i have done in the last 6 years... in a way i have been trying to draw who i really am my whole life...  thats me against the car....  and at the observation deck..

this next one actually had a different meaning.... it is america... she is alone and cold.. and the flag dosent cover her or keep her warm.... this is the second flag girl that i have drawn... the first was after 9/11..



this is the first... it became a painting

Once again Beth, I love it!

Your heart shines through in them.

Hi Beth, well those two drawings contain deep feelings that actually brought a tear or two. The feeling is very strong. You certainly do beautiful art work especially when it simply captures the audiences emotions.

I am glad that you have decided to continue with your art, it truly is a gift hon, just as some day you will discover that final result of transition is a gift.

The feelings of one who hopes to be a friend.

Cindy

Here are a couple of drawings I drew some years back, drawn in the pencil when, roughly what I looked like when I was 30 years old. I always had long ringleted shoulder length hair. I have it down to mid back today.



The other one is a copy of a medicine wheel that painted.



Cindy

Beth, Cindy, you are both very talented artists.

~Simone,
       Envious as a green junebug.

Thank you Lady Amarant. Been a while since I have drawn anything. I might get back into it again. I have just been to busy trying to rescue people. But then for me supporting people has been my passion. Soon on the 7th I think Wing Walker and I will gain open the doors to our drop in center and support group for trans folks. So few years and so much I would like to acomplish.

Cindy   

WOW Beth & Cindy- just AWESOME!!!!

I have been trying to get back into art, especially since deciding to transition, and I'm getting frusterated when I try to draw women. You two are very inspirational- keep up the great work!!!

AWESOME, SERIOUSLY!!!

  beth i really  love your art work . you draw so well . and you let the pen and paper flow freely . i

hope  to see more of you art work beth 

Hi Funnygrl, thank you much for the compliment and of course do keep your dream of drawing again alive. It is kind of difficult to do anything else when transitioning takes your full attention you will find more time to be creative with art after transitioning .



Posted on: April 05, 2008, 12:38:16 AM

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I call this one Visions. It was in a vision that I saw her years before I even knew about the word transsexual meant. I prefer using the name transe because it sounds mystical. I love imagination and fantasy. Actually I manage a Metaphysical and Fantasy meetup group here in BC



Cindy