And the hits keep on coming!

I finally found the ... I dunno, courage I guess but it didnt feel like it, to show my family me fully dressed. This first picture is my favorite, because... I dunno, I guess I just feel like it's honest. you can see the weight I still have to lose and male muscle mass that still needs to go, but it is what it is. It was taken by my sister who loaned me an old purse!



This second one is a special treat even though I messed up my hair in it and it looks like i have no chin definition at all because of lighting, and my sister was complaining she looked terrible (I guess we both were ), but... ITS ME AND MY SISTER SO WHO CARES!



And these last two are just the other two shirts I bought. I like the plain white one, but not crazy about the other one. I think it would look better with more to the outfit maybe.

awww, so cute! Love the pic of you and your sis!

Quote from: Roll on April 10, 2018, 07:45:28 PM
And the hits keep on coming!

I finally found the ... I dunno, courage I guess but it didnt feel like it, to show my family me fully dressed. This first picture is my favorite, because... I dunno, I guess I just feel like it's honest. you can see the weight I still have to lose and male muscle mass that still needs to go, but it is what it is. It was taken by my sister who loaned me an old purse!



This second one is a special treat even though I messed up my hair in it and it looks like i have no chin definition at all because of lighting, and my sister was complaining she looked terrible (I guess we both were ), but... ITS ME AND MY SISTER SO WHO CARES!



And these last two are just the other two shirts I bought. I like the plain white one, but not crazy about the other one. I think it would look better with more to the outfit maybe.

Oh my goodness...so cute!

SQUEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!! You are too cute, Ellie!!!!!!!! I can't even imagine what you're going to look like in a year....

The pic with your sister is so cute.... you both look so happy!!!

Oh! Two things I forgot to mention here!

First, holy crap do I look like my mom. I saw it in a few faceapp pictures, but it's getting ridiculous at this point. It feels sort of strange to see that.

Second, my sister said I did a great job on makeup, and was particularly impressed with lip liner/lip stick. I was really happy how it turned out! was just beard covering and foundation and the lip stuff, with some concealer around eyes, but it did wonders. The beard being thinned out even as much as it is after just two sessions (one more next monday!) is astounding.

Wow Ellie, I love all of the pictures... you should have no problems passing anytime you want to... you look great.

... hey girl, I can see your twin girls in that picture of you with your sister!!!!  squeeeee ! 
I imagine that you feel good about those girls growing!!!!

In conclusion... again I say, I love all of the pictures.... you absolutely look great!!

Thank you for treating us to your photos....

Hugs,
Danielle

Ellie
I have told you before your going to be gorgeous, and your photos show your are well on the way. I wish I had a sister as my Brothers are so self centered and only care about how I will affect them, not in helping me at all, so I don't talk to them now. Small loss to me really as I was the one going to see and support them for years/decades. nvm.
Ellie, give your sister a hug from me for being such a great buddy to you,
Love
Katie

Very very cute, Ellie! You look great!
Moni

I am in complete shock at the moment. I started randomly pricing some of my games and stuff tonight. I have... ummm... a significantly more valuable collection than I realized. I'm talking potentially pay for SRS valuable.

Case in point:

https://www.pricecharting.com/game/turbografx-16/turboduo-black-console?q=turboduo+black+console

Wow! That's great news [emoji5].  X

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Hi Cutie,

  Yeah you. You look pretty good in those pictures and what a great step it is that you decided to show your family. Perhaps the next time we are in that area you will come out to play.

Hugs,
  Laurie

Quote from: Laurie on April 11, 2018, 11:15:24 PM
Hi Cutie,

  Yeah you. You look pretty good in those pictures and what a great step it is that you decided to show your family. Perhaps the next time we are in that area you will come out to play.

Hugs,
  Laurie

Honestly, my regret and subsequent contemplation of turning down that chance to meet have really driven me a lot in the past two weeks, and are a large part of why I've found the need to really push myself. I knew intellectually how silly it was of me, and that despite everything I was still letting myself fall prey to my old anxieties. And no matter what else may happen, I never want to be controlled by those fears again. I may falter at times, but for the time being that has given me the push I needed. Earrings, brows, moving forward with hair transplant, being dressed in front of family, shopping for clothes in person... The timing was not a coincidence.

I am glad to hear it, hun. The progress you are making is wonderful, so there was no loss involved. I would not ask you to do something you don't feel comfortable doing. You are moving forward and if not meeting was the impetus for it, then it was still a win. Perhaps on Road Trip 3.0 we will meet. Michelle and I would like that.

Hugs,
  Laurie

Quote from: Laurie on April 11, 2018, 11:43:58 PM
I am glad to hear it, hun. The progress you are making is wonderful, so there was no loss involved. I would not ask you to do something you don't feel comfortable doing. You are moving forward and if not meeting was the impetus for it, then it was still a win. Perhaps on Road Trip 3.0 we will meet. Michelle and I would like that.

Hugs,
  Laurie

I look forward to it! Maybe by then I'll be in Atlanta and won't be off the beaten path to boot. (Though if you do come this way, we have mediocre beaches!)

Ellie, you are beautiful

Wow, you look amazing.  This transition is clearly working for you and you are so happy!  I'm a little envious how quickly you picked up makeup.  I'm still fumbling here, and what beard?  Wow!

I wouldn't worry too much about paying for gcs.  In many states, bottom surgery and BA is covered.  CA is one of them.  Just gotta pay your deductible.  If anything, sell what you really don't want to keep, but that's it, don't stress on that, just try and enjoy the ride.

Bari Jo

Quote from: Bari Jo on April 12, 2018, 01:42:41 AM
Wow, you look amazing.  This transition is clearly working for you and you are so happy!  I'm a little envious how quickly you picked up makeup.  I'm still fumbling here, and what beard?  Wow!

I wouldn't worry too much about paying for gcs.  In many states, bottom surgery and BA is covered.  CA is one of them.  Just gotta pay your deductible.  If anything, sell what you really don't want to keep, but that's it, don't stress on that, just try and enjoy the ride.

Bari Jo

The GCS mention was more just to ballpark the collection, and actually I may have undershot, thought GCS was more than it was after looking up some prices after thinking about it. But on the topic in general, right now I'm on GA medicaid, and they cover nothing as far as anyone will tell me. They really dodge the questions about it too. But with the degrees I'm working on, by the time I get to GCS point I think it shouldn't be an issue either way. (Though I have sort of decided I would avoid the in network specific surgeons based on what I've been reading everywhere, and find a way to pay out of pocket for one of the handful of big names, even with the waiting lists, just to ensure optimum results for something like that.)

Regardless, I really do want to get rid of everything. It is stressful having it, and over the next two years I really need the supplemental cash since I am in the process of paying $10.5k for this hair transplant which pretty much eats the last of my inheritance from my mom aside from what is going to tuition. The stress comes from that just having it, it can be destroyed at any moment, and I live in hurricane territory for the time being. Last two evacuations I was so terrified, and it's lucky something didn't happen given the area damage (single hole in roof = leak = thousands lost). I'm moving towards a minimalist mindset more and more I think. I want the clothes on my back and a handful of current stuff to play, everything else stored digitally and ran through emulators.

The one item I may wind up keeping though no matter what is my pink Sega Dreamcast. The reason being is that it was one of the handful of times I definitively let the girlie part of me reign over the years, and while I played it off as a joke I just loved having it even if I didn't fully understand why. (Which now, I totally do. )

This isn't mine, but here is what it is:

That's awesome news about your collection! I've got a few things that are worth around $300-500, but nothing like that!

I love the Dreamcast.  Yes, you need to keep that.  If you have an LGBT Center as part of your town or college ask for a meeting with their insurance specialist.  It was this one that told me what is being covered and what's not.  Hair transplants are not, so I chose to pay out of pocket like you for mine.  A lot of getting things covered is finding an affirming doctor that knows how to put in the right codes for diagnosis.  Insurance is pretty much looking for those codes. Of you start to get push back see if you can approach another way.  My first instinct now is to approach my LGBT insurance person.

Bari Jo

Honestly I'm pretty sure based on what everyone has told me, Georgia is vague on purpose. Helps prevent legal challenges based on discriminatory wording while at the same time they can say stuff isn't covered by the book. :/

And while I'm posting, thought I'd mention two things...!

1) Well, my shopping in person block is just flat out gone now. Still haven't tried anything on except that one time, but it's hard to use the Walmart fitting rooms here even under normal circumstances (it's weird, they are centrally located and super open and controlled, probably a lot of theft concerns there I guess?).

2) So I was testing a few new tops last night and I realized something was missing, and I opted to put on the bra and fake rice boobs for the first time in a while. The rice boobs are painful to wear with the real boob growth, so haven't been using them. Well, the big D cup rice boobs definitely made the tops look nicer, but what really shocked me was when I took the rice boobs out with the bra still on. I know I've got a decent amount of real growth going, but holy crap, wearing that bra (not a pushup, just underwire) putting them in place I don't even need the rice boobs for the effect. I don't know exactly what size, but if I had to wager a guess I'd say full A. Now granted I'm still pretty overweight so that helps, but I really had the moobs almost gone prior to HRT.

Oh, also, I've decided on a course of action regarding diet... I have a stockpile of frozen dinners, probably a good 3-4 weeks worth (lean cuisine type things) that I am going to clear out, and if I haven't lost weight again by the time I'm done with them I am going to give Keto a whirl even if just to break the plateau (which people seem to say its good for even if you don't do it long term).