I am new here and honestly at 43 do not know where I fit in. But what i do know is I am a very attractive male on the outside but have always thought, felt and enjoyed being female. I am not attracted to males yet have fully feminine needs. So it leaves me feeling alone and confused. I have struggled with this most of my life and first started wearing female clothing natrally at some where in the 4 year old age group. This caused many issues in my home lol
A quick written thought, more of a ruff draft.
I walk around In a daze to simply live this lie.
A fearful state of confusion forced to recognize yet denie.
Do you really see me hanging on this delicate thread?
Or do you see the projection that exists outside my head?
Do you ever wonder, why my actions dont match my outside skin?
Could it be you refuse to acknowledge who stares at you from within?
You mock it as an illusion, something that was conditioned into my head.
You tell me to let the fantasy feddish die but so too i'd be dead.
This is fully apart of me, its not a seporate state of binary to co exist.
Is it possible that life can be more difficult, maybe you should add your beyond reproach thoughts.
Lamenting at the loss of your son or daughter instead embracing with support and love instead.
Its not like we have chosen freely to be attacked ,ridiculed and shredded by everyone that we knew.
Millions of us were born this way, were no diffrent then you
In truth fathoms exist between our divide. As you were born male or female ,while I am both and cant denie.
Yet you believe your correct with your ignorance and your projection.
Dont you think if i could have been born me, i would have your shelter and protections.
How little you know about the woman and man that within me residues.
If i only could have been born just simply a boy or girl.
Life could have been simple and id feel less obscured.
So ladies before your giggles of judgement pass attention to me in the room.
Just remember that inside im exactly the same as you.
I think and i feel, like you im never attractive enough. Im conscious of me face and the curves that reach my butt.
Gentleman, I do declare. I love the feel of a woman caught deep within my stare.
The way she seemingly runs to cause you to chase. If you want to close the deal fellas, you better step up your pace.
I am you, yes your brother, sister, father and mother. I was just born diffrent then my assigned genitic gender and i cant help that i am the other.
Have a wonderous day of living life and loving yourself and others
