I just came back from my first session with my gender therapist. I was nervous, but I did open up honestly. Mainly, she asked a lot of background questions, but we did discuss my being transgender somewhat. She said right now she wants to help me feel comfortable about talking about my feminine feelings. She also said that this is not ever going to go away, and that it's ok to be trans. I was trans from the day I was born and I will be trans until I die. My therapist said that this is not something I need to be ashamed of, even if I don't come out to the world. I have my next appointment in two weeks and am looking forward to it. The shock of sharing my "female side" with another person is still there, but I think I'm stepping in the right direction to knowing and loving myself for who I am.