Feeling very much back to normal today. I don't know why I found it so hard to settle lately, I think it's a combination of a lot of things. Anyway like I said feeling some semblance of normalcy.
Got the builders in this afternoon, I thought about reverting to kind and dressing down, but my norm these days is Sadie so Sadie is what they'll get
Had a non-gender therapy session yesterday which went well. My therapist is female and I feel very comfortable with her. It's more of a girly chat than anything else, sometimes that's all I need and she's very supportive of my transition.
She also used to be a beauty therapist and often comments on the way I present saying I'm doing the right thing, my makeup looks natural. You see a lady (as in me) likes to hear these things
It can't all be about depression, anxiety and exploring the depths of my emotions. She seems good at knowing the time and place and assessing my mood.
I read yesterday that the waiting times for my GC is now 20 months, obviously it's subject to change but by my calculations I may be seen sometime in November. Of course I'm not counting the days, just like Liz isn't.
But it doesn't seem long now.
Although I've found the wait challenging, for me it's also caused me to stand on my own two feet. I've come out, gone full time. I know what it's like to face fear an overcome it. Lots of positives, just need to sort the dysphoria which is just horrible and I know is going to be a challenge in itself. I haven't committed to anything irreversible yet. I know that, but the thought of starting HRT fills me with such a peace I know it will be a know brainer.
Anyways, I'm birthday girl in another five days, just fair warning
Peace and love and all that good stuff,
Sadie
