Need a mental remedy for this! Insomnia was, for the most part, a huge thing in my life. Inrecall as a child I would toss and turn in bed sometimes for a couple of hours. Before coming out as a woman I recall insomnia increased as well from mere tossing and turning for a couple hours to getting up at odd hours in the am and often not able to fall asleep. I found one solution a few years back for insomnia, transition and HRT. Never had I had more restful and peaceful sleeps with plenty of REM. However thing have gotten real off lately. Around January or February I started to address a lot of personal issues and opened up Pandora's box. These dreams of past events came back (not all traumatic events at the given year of the dream played, some just random) and in these dreams I was "male"... they freaked me out sommuch I would wake up in panic and disgust and not fall asleep. I am a woman, I liked my dreams to reflect this back when they always did. Anyways, this has gotten so out of control that I have developed a fear of sleep. The nightmares have gone down a lot but the fear of the old skin dreams remain. In the past 2 weeks I have gone full nights with no sleep.
I have tried : chamomile tea, melatonin, valerian root... all seem to have ran their course. There was another herbal pill I took that included Passion flower that seemed to have worked butncosts money. Recently I began to take pharmacotical sleep aides which can work, but I don't want to be dependent on them. Anyone have their own cure for insomnia? I don't want to depend on herbs or meds for a long time. I just want to go back to it being anxiousnof sleep, I haven't had a nightmare of "him" for a long time however I still get that quizzy feeling I got back in winter of the fear it may happen. Remedys?
