Hi everyone, I wanted to ask at what age did you realize you were transgender? My mom says that I'm too old and that if I really was transgender I would have known a lot earlier. I started thinking about it when I was 13 and now I'm 19 and seriously considering it (I'm like 90% sure that I'm transgender but comments from my mom and others are making me doubt myself).

Quote from: DEATH13 on June 07, 2018, 10:22:25 AM
Hi everyone, I wanted to ask at what age did you realize you were transgender? My mom says that I'm too old and that if I really was transgender I would have known a lot earlier. I started thinking about it when I was 13 and now I'm 19 and seriously considering it (I'm like 90% sure that I'm transgender but comments from my mom and others are making me doubt myself).

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Hello DEATH13,   Well, to answer your question, I was about the same age, before I started High School I likewise knew that I needed to transition MTF.
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I knew I was a boy until my chest started growing and I was pushed out by my friends (boys). This happened about the time I was 11-12. I realized I was a freak and tried hard to be a girl. But I failed miserably at that. I've started my transition at age 40.

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Quote from: DEATH13 on June 07, 2018, 10:22:25 AM
Hi everyone, I wanted to ask at what age did you realize you were transgender? My mom says that I'm too old and that if I really was transgender I would have known a lot earlier. I started thinking about it when I was 13 and now I'm 19 and seriously considering it (I'm like 90% sure that I'm transgender but comments from my mom and others are making me doubt myself).

Hi, and welcome.

I started wondering if I might be transgender in my 30s or 40s.  It took until I was 61 to realize that, yes, I was for sure.  Yes, there were signs farther back, as young as 7 for me, that I recognize in hindsight.  But at the time I had no idea what they meant.

Your mother is wrong about the typical age of recognition.  More people transition in their 40s, 50s and 60s than before puberty.  We old biddies don't make headlines the way youngsters do, so the general public is simply less aware of us, even though we are more typical.

Recognizing your identity around puberty, as you did, is the second most common age.

I would recommend that you try to see a gender therapist if you can.  You are 19, so, in most jurisdictions, you shouldn't need parental approval to do that.

I was 21 when I seriously started questioning my gender identity, but I have a few friends who've known since their teens. One of them actually called me a "late bloomer," but from what I know it's not uncommon for people to repress their feelings for decades before figuring it out.

Thank you all so much for your replies, you guys really give me hope

I think realising you're different in the way you think, act, behave comes first, then figuring out you're transgender comes next...I can't imagine there is a set age at which anyone comes out/or makes the realisation.

Some of us are blatantly trans from the day we can walk, others are more submissive and figure it out later when we are ready to accept it. Everyone's journey is unique, try not to beat yourself up over it

I didn't really think there was a set age, but my mom kept saying it over and over so I just had to ask. Now that I think about it there were signs when I was younger, but I just recently started college and came to a place mentally (and physically) where I could really start finding out who I am. I thought I was agender at first, but now I'm pretty sure that was just an excuse to dress like a guy without saying I'm a guy. Thank you for your reply anastasialea, I think what you described above ("I think realising you're different in the way you think, act, behave comes first, then figuring out you're transgender comes next...I can't imagine there is a set age at which anyone comes out/or makes the realisation") is what happened with me

Hi Death13
Like all the other lady's have said there is no set age
I had feelings around 5  knew by around 13 14 and went to do somthing around 20 but life happens now age 29 and going through the counceling to get approved

No one else can tell you how you feel only you can decide that your trans
Pscologests are there to guide you but remember it's how you feel  at the end of the day

I was aware that something wasn't quite right at a very early age, but too young to understand what. It wasn't until I was five or six that I started to express more feminine characteristics and desires. By eight I was sneaking makeup just to feel normal, not as play or dress up, it was much deeper and more profound than that.
When puberty hit I knew I was female but had no idea how to deal with it. I came out and started living full time at the age 56 about sixteen months ago.

Peace and love and all that good stuff,

Sadie

Thanks for your replies guys <3

Welcome to Susan's Place. I also realize the truth at age 13 and I thought the feeling just came out of the blue. It was only a long time after that I discovered much my early childhood was fitting a feminine nature into a masculine world. My preference in clothes was toward dresser clothing rather than the bluejeans that boys preferred to wear. I would rather play with girls than boys. I was more passive than aggressive in my nature. When I was young this seemed normal and I thought everybody was this way. It was only in hindsight that I saw how different I was from others.

I'd say I was four or five although I didn't learn the word transgendered until I was in my late 20's.

There was GREAT article someone posted on here, I wish I could find it for you. It was about the suspected causes of gender dysphoria. The hypothesis was that MtF people seemed to come in two categories, depending on what happened during their development in utero. The first category is those who come out and know at a very early age that they were born in the wrong body. Often they INSIST they are girls and take up girl interests. Sadly in our culture that all to often does not go over well. The second category is the one I identified with and perhaps you may as well, and that is those who realize a little later. Usually we make do and fake it as our assigned gender at birth for a certain period of time, until such point where it is unbearable.

Not sure it that helps. If I can find the article I will post a link. In the meantime, in my opinion, rule number one is please be kind to yourself! 

It definitely seems to be different for everyone, wonderful question to pose, though, Death!

I was aware of crossdressing by like age 13, but I did not nor ever considered crossdressing myself.
I discovered what transgender was around age 22, but again, I never expected that I could or would be transgender.

There are numerous little hints throughout my life, but as I state in my blog thread here: https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,237152.msg2131598.html#msg2131598 I didn't even think I could be transgender until Easter this year, and even then, I thought maybe I would just like to actually be a girl, but not really see myself as one.

Sometimes you know for a long time, sometimes only your subconscious really knows. It's kind of surprising how the brain works like that, I think. I was looking at full transition videos on youtube and stuff long before I ever considered and let's just say I had done nothing up to Easter this year to support myself in a female role.  I didn't even really bother studying clothes, makeup, or anything, really!

Hello Death13

The simple answer is "literally at any age". Some of us know as children, some realise at puberty, some discover in their 20s 30s 40s 50s 60s 70s or 80s. Absolutely seriously!

Some of us know subconsciously before properly, some of us discover and then examine ourselves and realise with hindsight it was already there but buried or suppressed.

Personally I knew at 4 that I wished to have been born a girl, I crossdressed and bodyshaved all my adult life and buried and reburied mainly by work issues.

However it became so dominant, that I had no choice other than to seek therapy aged 62 and then HRT and now I hope to go public in 2019.

I wish you the best of luck in discovering your true self.

Pamela

In my case, the feelings that I was being treated differently than my sister at about 5.  What I was feeling did not become defined until I was around 10 and that is the earliest I remember talking openly about it.    I started acting on it at around 11 or 12 through dressing in a way that pleased me at night.

It came in phases as I aged and learned, but there was an inkling of awareness very early on.

I have talked with many of my brothers and sisters about this.  I have started to see that there are really a couple of common patterns.  The person knows at a young age or the person figures it out later in life.  Both present their own unique perspectives I guess.

Thanks again for all of your replies. I've been thinking about this a lot recently and have realized that I was showing signs when I was much younger. All of my friends were boys and I preferred doing boyish activities to girlish ones. I was called a tomboy by almost all of my friends at the time. The issue I'm facing at the moment is that my mom thinks I'm moving too quickly, that it doesn't make sense that my realization came out of seemingly nowhere. I don't think it did some out of nowhere, though. I told her about the signs from earlier in my life and how I had been thinking actively about it when I was 13, but was too caught up with my anxiety and depression to act on it. I think I subconsciously knew but it never became apparent until recently when I cut my hair and started dressing like a guy. Does it happen "suddenly" like this for some people? My mom is concerned that it's only been a few months and I already have a very strong urge to be male. She wants me to be confident in myself and who I am right now, but I don't feel confident as Louise. I feel confident as Louis, more than I ever have before (and I've had self-confidence issues for a long time). When I picture myself as Louis, I feel so much happier. *Sigh*

Quote from: DEATH13 on June 08, 2018, 08:52:53 AMDoes it happen "suddenly" like this for some people?

Yes, I think it usually comes suddenly.  Awareness can build subconsciously until it reaches a threshhold and becomes conscious.  That's just the way that awareness works. 

It's kind of like filling a jug with water.  The water can be running for a couple of minutes before the jug fills and overflows.  Was the overflow sudden?  It looks like it was, but in fact, it had been building up since you turned on the water.

There is nothing you have said so far in your posts that is unusual.  Your experience as you describe it is perfectly normal for a trans person.