Nice when you get correct named, picked up my new meds and they had Ms Davina ---------------- 0n them, Docs first thing tomorrow and will see my name in lights . Large video screen to say go to room xx

Quote from: davina61 on May 23, 2018, 01:23:15 PM
Nice when you get correct named, picked up my new meds and they had Ms Davina ---------------- 0n them, Docs first thing tomorrow and will see my name in lights . Large video screen to say go to room xx

Yes, my doc have called me Sadie for a good while now, already had my name in lights Such a relief not to be outed in the waiting room.
Still working on the chemist but last time I was there they didn't gender me, just Called out my surname. I'll need an official name change for the meds which will be my next venture.

Peace and love and all that good stuff,

Sadie

Spent this week sorting out my exercise and diet plan. I'm now almost officially vegan and spent hours on Cronometer making sure I'm getting the proper nutrients. I've got a head full of carbs, calories and B12, but am really enjoying the learning curve. I love sifting through data.

I managed sixteen miles easy running this week with a few hill sprints thrown in. Overall feeling much better for it .

Still very dysphoric though, getting back to exercise has come with a lot of old memories that I knew I'd have to deal with at some point. I'm on it though, but it hasn't been easy taking my head out of the gender space and concentrating on other aspects of my life. Also managed to read a book for the first time in ages, I'm full of beans, literally. Paaaarp

Still waiting to hear from the clinic, but to be honest I'm glad of the full time experience the wait has given me. I've learned a lot about myself and dealt with a lot of baggage. I'm not that Shy, timid old lady any more. Still have my doubts and fears, but I guess I'd be worried if I didn't, it shows that I care about my future, something that I couldn't say a few years back.

So lots of positives this week and to top it off the sun's shining. Yay for vitamin D

Peace and love and all that good stuff,

Sadie

Quote from: Shy on June 02, 2018, 03:09:14 PM


...Still very dysphoric though, getting back to exercise has come with a lot of old memories that I knew I'd have to deal with at some point. I'm on it though, but it hasn't been easy taking my head out of the gender space and concentrating on other aspects of my life. Also managed to read a book for the first time in ages, I'm full of beans, literally. Paaaarp ...



So lots of positives this week and to top it off the sun's shining. Yay for vitamin D

Peace and love and all that good stuff,

Sadie

Wow Sadie sounds like you really have taken life by the throat and giving it a good throttling!! It is so nice to see you making such good progress.

Good luck with the Diet and exercise I too have finally decided I had better take it seriously before my time to diet runs out!! Second weigh in tomorrow, the first being a disaster having lost only 200 grams in two weeks...I must say I didn't exercise and "cheated" constantly. Been much better this last week.

Transition can be all consuming and it can be so easy to lose track of the4 mundane part of our lives when something as important as transition is happening. Well done for being able to get perspective on that...it is such a difficult thing to do.

"I'm not that Shy, timid old lady any more" Brilliant!!


Take care

Liz

  I was glad to see your update today. I agree with that Aussie lady above, you have been taking control of the things in your life that has had you so flustered in the past and dealing with them. Run 16 "easy" (cough cough wheeze wheeze) I have trouble with 4 - 5 miles walking. Someone hand me my inhaler.
  Good Job Sadie. I'm proud to see you doing so well.

Hugs,
   Laurie

Quote from: ElizabethK on June 02, 2018, 09:59:51 PM

Good luck with the Diet and exercise I too have finally decided I had better take it seriously before my time to diet runs out!! Second weigh in tomorrow, the first being a disaster having lost only 200 grams in two weeks...I must say I didn't exercise and "cheated" constantly. Been much better this last wee

Thanks Liz, the only way I can diet is by counting calories, my will power is akin to a lettuce in at a bunny rave. One blink and it's gone

Quote from: ElizabethK on June 02, 2018, 09:59:51 PM

Transition can be all consuming and it can be so easy to lose track of the4 mundane part of our lives when something as important as transition is happening. Well done for being able to get perspective on that...it is such a difficult thing to do.

Yes, I've been all about perspective of late, it's time to stretch my wings a little. Transitioning can be deafening at times and it's easy to loose sight of other aspects of life. I'm not seeking nirvana or revelation anymore, just plain old normal will do just fine.

Have an awesome week

Peace and love and all that good stuff,

Sadie

Quote from: Laurie on June 02, 2018, 10:49:32 PM
  I was glad to see your update today. I agree with that Aussie lady above, you have been taking control of the things in your life that has had you so flustered in the past and dealing with them. Run 16 "easy" (cough cough wheeze wheeze) I have trouble with 4 - 5 miles walking. Someone hand me my inhaler.
  Good Job Sadie. I'm proud to see you doing so well.

Hugs,
   Laurie

Hi Lauriedoodles,

Seems like I'm not the only one taking control of things. Look at where you are now girl, the things you've instigated and challenges you've overcome. I couldn't be more proud of you.

You burn almost the same amount of calories if you walk 5 miles or do a steady jog. With jogging you just get there faster. You're doing awesome.

Have an lovely week

Peace and love and all that good stuff,

Sadie

Well done love, diet here as well so the only way I will lose some is to cut out eating. No chance of walking it off as dodgy knee and lack of time, hoping the knee will be better with less tonnage on it.

Quote from: davina61 on June 03, 2018, 09:47:42 AM
Well done love, diet here as well so the only way I will lose some is to cut out eating. No chance of walking it off as dodgy knee and lack of time, hoping the knee will be better with less tonnage on it.

I'm not dieting per se, I've switched my diet to plant based whole foods. It's a lifestyle change for me more than anything. So far it's been great apart from the sheer quantity of grub I have to consume to hit my nutritional targets, but at least I'm not continually hungry now. I've also learned why rabbits can decimate my sisters vegetable patch overnight.

Good luck with the diet Davina, I use Cronometer a free web app for calorie and nutritional counting. A bit of a chore initially logging everything I munch on but it keeps me honest.

Peace and love and all that good stuff,

Sadie

Hi peeps,

Since there are a lot of food posts on this forum I'll pitch in with a 'what I ate today' post. My first week vegan.

Breakfast...... Overnight oats soaked in unsweetened almond milk, some raw almonds, blueberries, a banana and flaxseed all mixed together into a little bowl of heaven.

Lunch.......Fresh pineapple, watermelon, black grapes and some walnuts.

Dinner......Organic tofu, woodland mushrooms, black beans, spinach, avocado, broccoli, in a light miso sauce. A sprinkling of nutritional yeast fortified with B12 because I'm now moo free.

Supper......Two small oranges, cherries and some almonds.

3 cups of green tea and lots of spring water throughout the day.

The hardest thing I've found is the sheer quantity of whole fruit and veggies I have to eat to hit nutritional targets, the plus Side is that I don't want to snack anymore which is awesome .

Also managed a 90min jog early this morning.

I had a bit of a struggle midweek with name issue and form filling, which upset me a little . I'm putting off my deed poll until I get to gender clinic, I don't know why but it just seems prudent to wait. So patience again is the order of the day I did get a 'she's' (as in me) 'Is waiting for you at reception', which was a nice to hear. 

Anywho, that's my week thus far, a few lifestyle changes but sadly little change on the gender front.
I'm off for a long hike on Saturday which I'm looking forward too, so spending the rest of tonight planing my rout.

Peace and love and all that good stuff,

Sadie.

Well this was my food today so see what you think. breakfast, oats semi skimmed milk and water and banana , lunch salad of lettuce , cucumber, celery, small tomatoes and a bit of sandwich meat (tonged) with ceaser dressing  and an apple, tea coconut fish curry, 2 cod steaks (4ins square or a little bigger) 1 onion, chilis , salt termaric and coconut milk with fresh coriander and a 1/3 cup of rice. Banana for tea (ran out of dried fruit)

  Better you than me Sadie. I like my meats too much to give them up. That goes for milk too, nothing but whole milk for this girl. I tried a sip of unsweetened almond milk once ...that was enough for me. But if that is the way you want it more power to you.
  I made a beef stir fry last night with a little garlic, lime juce, soy sauce, sugar, asparagus, broccoli, fresh green beans, serano pepper , thin  sliced shallot, and red and green bell pepper. I served it over basmati rice. even my sister said it was good.

  Keep getting out there and running Sadie you need to get into shape for that run.

Hugs,
   Laurie

Quote from: davina61 on June 07, 2018, 04:39:42 PM
Well this was my food today so see what you think. breakfast, oats semi skimmed milk and water and banana , lunch salad of lettuce , cucumber, celery, small tomatoes and a bit of sandwich meat (tonged) with ceaser dressing  and an apple, tea coconut fish curry, 2 cod steaks (4ins square or a little bigger) 1 onion, chilis , salt termaric and coconut milk with fresh coriander and a 1/3 cup of rice. Banana for tea (ran out of dried fruit)

I'm no dietitian but looks good to me Davina.
Watch the coconut milk if you want to loose weight, it's really high In saturated fats.
I think if you stick to mainly whole foods you'll do fine, If you want to loose weight may have to track your calories, and I mean everything. Im 6ft and to loose 2lbs a week I need to consume no more than 1700 cals. Last week I lost just over 2lbs so it works.
For me I also track nutrients to prevent tiredness and deficiencies. Having more energy means I'm more active and burn more calories.
When I hit my target weight I should be a lot more clued in as to what I'm eating. I'm enjoying learning and trying new things though.

Peace and love and all that good stuff,

Sadie

Quote from: Laurie on June 07, 2018, 08:06:33 PM
  Better you than me Sadie. I like my meats too much to give them up. That goes for milk too, nothing but whole milk for this girl. I tried a sip of unsweetened almond milk once ...that was enough for me. But if that is the way you want it more power to you.
  I made a beef stir fry last night with a little garlic, lime juce, soy sauce, sugar, asparagus, broccoli, fresh green beans, serano pepper , thin  sliced shallot, and red and green bell pepper. I served it over basmati rice. even my sister said it was good.

  Keep getting out there and running Sadie you need to get into shape for that run.

Hugs,
   Laurie

Enjoy what you enjoy Laurie, we've all got our own tastes and preferences. That's what makes us all unique.
The stir fry sounds nice, glad to see you're looking after sis. You're a good girl.

Peace and love and all that stuff,

Sadie

Well I'm just over two weeks on a whole plant food diet. So far so good, with exercise have lost 6.5lbs and am now nearing my ideal weight. It's been fun researching it all, and really enjoyable trying out new recipes.

Had another run-in with bureaucracy and my dead name again, which wasn't much fun but have just decided to live with it until I get to the gender clinic.

Been much happier in myself, still wondering what the heck I'm doing sometimes, but the face always goes on before I leave the house. I'd feel really strange without a bit of warpaint on. Most of my dysphoria is physical though, that's the one constant that won't go away.

Anywho, I don't really have anything exciting to report, life is kind of normalising now all the craziness of the past year has quietened down. Off for a 'non gender' therapy session tomorrow, but I feel I'm also coming to the end of that. I'm not overly depressed or anxious anymore, just ticking along patiently waiting for the gender clinic.

I'm pretty clued in about how autism effects me now. Mainly I have no noise filter, I hear everything, from every direction all at once, which can get a little overwhelming. I always wondered why I'm permanently plugged into headphones and now I know. It's the only way I can block things out. There are also a few other sensory things from touch to bright lights but other than that I'm able to manage it o.k. Knowing what it is was half the battle, I can be a little easier on myself

I seem to have mastered the art of typing while my talons are drying, not a dink or smudge in sight. I've gone for a dusky sage green this time, I usually like the red and pink polishes so can't work out if mouldy green makes me look like one of the living dead or not . Have a lovely weekend people, all of a sudden I have a strange craving for braaaainsssss.

Peace and love and all that good stuff,

Sadie

Sadie you have lots of good news here, and where some details aren't ideal you are managing things very well.  Great work on your part.

Hi Sadie,

  I like this update. Though it acknowledges that you have issues that you have to contend with all of the time, There is also the bright outlook you now have in regards to them. You "understand" them and are "in control" of them! You have worked hard to achieve this and now that you have. You can deal with and work around them. You demeanor is much much better, hopeful and more confident. These qualities show Sadie. You have made  much progress since we met. You are also more supporting of others than you were way back then. You have been very supporting of me and for that I thank you Hun. ((((Hugs))). Keep up that good work Sadie.

Hugs,
  Laurie

Nice to see you are doing well I do think about you and hope you are OK when it goes quite. Sage green nails have been looking for some to go with my earrings and necklace and panel van!!!

Quote from: Kendra on June 22, 2018, 01:20:49 AM
Sadie you have lots of good news here, and where some details aren't ideal you are managing things very well.  Great work on your part.

Thanks Kendra I had another good day today, I've been in the wilderness of late but getting back to my old self.
Hope you are well, it's been a huge year for you and I've taken so much encouragement from your journey.

Peace and love and all that good stuff,

Sadie

Quote from: Laurie on June 22, 2018, 02:10:26 AM
Hi Sadie,

  I like this update. Though it acknowledges that you have issues that you have to contend with all of the time, There is also the bright outlook you now have in regards to them. You "understand" them and are "in control" of them! You have worked hard to achieve this and now that you have. You can deal with and work around them. You demeanor is much much better, hopeful and more confident. These qualities show Sadie. You have made  much progress since we met. You are also more supporting of others than you were way back then. You have been very supporting of me and for that I thank you Hun. ((((Hugs))). Keep up that good work Sadie.

Hugs,
  Laurie

Aw, thanks Laurie, you too have kept me on the straight and narrow, narrowed my beam when my focus goes all fuzzy.

I had a lovely parting meeting with my therapist yesterday. She gave me the warmest hug that I've ever had and said she'll keep in touch. I'll remember her with great fondness. So I'm definitely in a much better place than I was a few years back. I'll miss our monthly sessions I'm sure, but she's given me enough tools and wisdom to stand tall in the world again
Hope you are well and giving the bureaucrats what for with all the name changes shenanigans.

Peace and love and all that good stuff,

Sadie