The general feelings among transwomen as their breasts develop appear to be, for most, those of happiness,  excitement and validation. And I have certainly shared in these too.

But there are times I feel less sure about the development I've seen. Personally I never had a huge amount of body dysphoria, it was more social. My desire for HRT was certainly more for the mental rather than the physical changes.

Over the last four years my body shape has changed dramatically,  from being hugely over weight, to then quite a lean male body, and now an increasingly soft and curvaceous one.

When i look in the mirror and see my boobs  especially, it's hard for me to recognise them as part of me. I'm sure over time, things will change in this respect, but right now, I feel a little uneasy with the changes.

Maybe it's just the speed of change, and also the fact I probably identify as perhaps non-binary, though very heavily towards the female end.

I just wanted to share with people that these are big changes, and it's fine to sometimes have mixed feelings about them.[emoji4]

Megan. X

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My opinion about breasts have changed also.

Previously, I was obsessed with female breasts and just could not get enough of them. Today, now that I have my own, I do not see what the fuss was all about. I couldn't care less.

When I look in the mirror and see myself, I know that my breasts are part of me now. It just seems to have always been this way. It is not that the novelty has worn off, but rather, I have just accepted my new body as myself.

Things just happen that way sometimes.

Interesting comments.

I had one of those moments recently while being stripped off before going into the shower and looking at myself in the full length mirror. Something that I have to admit I don't do often because.... I don't think to do it.

I thought: Yes I love my hair. I'm sort of use to the hole in my neck, but only sort of. Glad I've put on some weight and I'm looking healthier. I wonder what the fascination of boobs was?

Sure I like them but I'm not sure why, they just look right being there. I'd look odd without them.

I think that if the whole fight, the dysphoria, the pain and the tears and the angst. The fears. The worry and the what if's, all boil down to - I'm looking pretty good for an old broad, means that it has all been worth it.

I remember during first session with my therapist saying; when I asked if he could help me live as a man, 'I'm sorry, I can't make your brain match your body but I can make your body to match your brain.'

I think he was spot on and he succeeded.

Tg mtf are boob focused and many have BA with D and larger cups. I always wanted boobs but a size that I could still be very sporty, running and surfing and settled for a small C. Today I am ever so pleased with that decision. In Thailand the tg pagent queens have B cups, my close friend now needs to have smaller boobs to be  a top tier model.

I love my boobs, I still admire them and  they are naturally me.

Quote from: warlockmaker on June 15, 2018, 04:35:41 AM
Tg mtf are boob focused and many have BA with D and larger cups. I always wanted boobs but a size that I could still be very sporty, running and surfing and settled for a small C. Today I am ever so pleased with that decision. In Thailand the tg pagent queens have B cups, my close friend now needs to have smaller boobs to be  a top tier model.

I love my boobs, I still admire them and  they are naturally me.

I think there are two things involved here, hmm, maybe three. First breast size is cultural. In Japan smaller boobs are the norm. In keeping with this we want to.be proportional. Perfectly adequate boobs that are not proportional to your chest aren't really adequate. Also, we are often creatures of stereotype. We play to stereotypes to get through faking our assigned gender. It's our comfort zone. So this safety strategy is what we turn to when we are learning to be us.

Not all that different from teenage cis women, really.

The spy who came in from the cold in the War Between the Sexes.

Quote from: Megan. on June 15, 2018, 01:51:09 AM
The general feelings among transwomen as their breasts develop appear to be, for most, those of happiness,  excitement and validation. And I have certainly shared in these too.

But there are times I feel less sure about the development I've seen. Personally I never had a huge amount of body dysphoria, it was more social. My desire for HRT was certainly more for the mental rather than the physical changes.

Over the last four years my body shape has changed dramatically,  from being hugely over weight, to then quite a lean male body, and now an increasingly soft and curvaceous one.

When i look in the mirror and see my boobs  especially, it's hard for me to recognise them as part of me. I'm sure over time, things will change in this respect, but right now, I feel a little uneasy with the changes.

Maybe it's just the speed of change, and also the fact I probably identify as perhaps non-binary, though very heavily towards the female end.

I just wanted to share with people that these are big changes, and it's fine to sometimes have mixed feelings about them.[emoji4]

Megan. X

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I have recently had this same experience, however mine is with my butt.  It has filled out after a decade of hrt, and I am just not used to that.  I have always had a lean body - all over.  When I look in the mirror and see my butt not being lean, or when I try to wear pants I bought a few years ago and they are very tight on my backside, it strikes me as wrong, in many respects.  However, I think I just have not fully accepted/adjusted to that aspect of a female body type on me.  It strikes me as appropriate on other girls, but I am still coming to grips with it.  My wife comments often how my butt looks like a girl's butt now.  I should be happy about that.  I am not unhappy about it; just not finding it satisfying/gratifying/fulfilling, I guess.  So, I think I understand what you mean, Megan.

Thanks all for some good comments, nice to know I'm not alone. [emoji5]

Interestingly, I can echo Cindy's comments on hair, I love mine, and aside windy days, would be lost without it now; odd as  I had a buzz cut for more than 5 years previously.



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Quote from: warlockmaker on June 15, 2018, 04:35:41 AM
Tg mtf are boob focused and many have BA with D and larger cups. I always wanted boobs but a size that I could still be very sporty, running and surfing and settled for a small C. Today I am ever so pleased with that decision. In Thailand the tg pagent queens have B cups, my close friend now needs to have smaller boobs to be  a top tier model.

I love my boobs, I still admire them and  they are naturally me.

Same thoughts here. Years ago I thought that if I have b cups, that´s enough. And now after 7 months of hrt they are b cups.

And there is still time to grow, but I already got what I wanted.

Quote from: Megan. on June 15, 2018, 10:56:56 AM

Interestingly, I can echo Cindy's comments on hair, I love mine, and aside windy days, would be lost without it now; odd as  I had a buzz cut for more than 5 years previously.

I second that. My hair is now longer than it's ever been (in college I went for the Kurt Cobain look). After college I was in the military and then for the 20 years afterwards wore the buzz cut. 21 months later I'm only halfway to my goal. But I'm thrilled with how well the top has filled in (without finasteride).

Breast size is an interesting topic and one that seems to come up here on a regular basis. Usually, it is a topic that is presented by those in the early stages of transition. Breast size is also a very personal thing, different needs/wants for different women. Over the past few months, this topic has been very import to me. It is coming up to four years since I started transitioning and it is now that I am getting frustrated with my development.As I like to run, I am not after large breasts.  Proportion is important to me, as well as shape and projection. I am experiencing an increased amount of dysphoria over my breasts, and lack of hair growth, and this has led me to plan for a BA. I like to run so to big is not good. Right now, I have seen better breasts on men around the pool where I have spent the last few winters.  As a result, I have yet to buy a bathing suit!

Much of Dena's existence I have been AA or A in cup size and I have been comfortable with it. Getting back on estradiol has pushed me up to a full B cup and in my mind there is only one real advantage to it. With a 42b bra size, it's much easer to find a bra that fits. Small cup sizes with a big band size are really rare and difficult to find.

On the other hand, When I am nude, I have enough waist and hip that I see a feminine shape in the mirror and everything is as it should be. I don't have a desire to change anything even though my back side is pretty flat. It's feeling a bit more padded back there so maybe sitting on a hard surface will become more comfortable in the future.

You might be feeling the way some teenaged girls do about them when they begin to appear. Not every one of them is looking forward to boobs. Some of them wonder if they look "normal", there are cons as well as pros to having them and fears about them sometimes. I'd say it's natural to feel some trepidation about a new developing body part.

I remember that talk about inspecting them for lumps and thinking that the glandular tissue inside could have been something weird by the strange feel of it, and being freaked out as to whether it was "supposed" to feel like that. But then of course I always felt they were too strange for me and didn't really belong. I imagine with time you will get comfortable with them. Everyone goes through an "awkward" stage with them, that's for sure.