Had that packaging removed today, and lets just say, that I don´t ever again, not in this lifetime, not in next, never, want to experience anything like that. Most of the anxiety comes, when your mind doesn´t know where you are being touched, what is happening, there is no previous reference, everyhing is new and at least for me, created panic.
After that, I had a complete meltdown, crying eyes off from my head, as I couldn´t pee. The catheter needed to be put back. I know, that this is not rare, everything is just swollen and still need to wait a bit. I know and perhaps the crying was just stress release from weeks, months and years?
The positives; Even with the swelling, I can see past the swelling, and if nothing unexpected happens, the result will look great! Really!
I also already have a sense of feeling downstairs as when the nurse was showing how to clean places, it suddenly felt good, differently good than before, but good. Again, brain didn´t know how to react, so only giggling came out. Definitely can feel!