Hi Ellie.

That's so cool your out totally and feeling good.
You're Ellie so other names are wrong now, so imo your right to correct them. They should respect you for that too.

Wishing you a happy week

Sophie

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Two quick things!

Went to grab last minute stuff at grocery store, I was wearing women's jeans, random unisex t-shirt that is not figure hugging at all (boobs not visible basically), with my hat and earrings and all but was completely unshaven since yesterday. beard not heavy at all at this point, but its still there slightly. (two days growth looks like what 2 hours growth used to look like). AND SOMEONE MAAMED ME.

I was with my sister because she had her moms CC and was covering it, and as we were checking out I started chatting with the cashier for like 10 minutes. Afterwards my sister looked at me and just said "You're just like dad, don't ever tell me you're an introvert again." (My dad is known for striking up conversations with random people everywhere he goes, much to the chagrin of people on a schedule.) But I realized... She is 100% right. I don't think I qualify as an introvert anymore. I definitely used to, extremely so. But now... I don't feel like one, I'm going and dancing at pride, I'm making friends wherever I go, I'm able to confidently hold conversations... it's crazy. Who knew this was all hiding beneath the surface of my anxiety and depression?!

That is awesome gendered correctly and feeling good about yourself.

Nice one ELLIE (from someone still getting dead named ) , I strike up conversations now with random folk. Must say mostly ladies in supermarket !!!!

I'm just getting caught up on your thread.  Wow, I love how things are coming together for you.  You are showing your self-confidence, and people are gendering you correctly, even correcting themselves when they make a mistake.  I love to see you feeling good about yourself.

Quote from: Roll on July 01, 2018, 11:07:08 PMIf he wants to think of me as his brother while I'm walking around with boobs in a bikini in a few years, I'll let him worry about suffering that bit of dissonance.

Love the attitude!  You tell him, sister!

Quote from: Roll on July 04, 2018, 02:47:06 PM
Who knew this was all hiding beneath the surface of my anxiety and depression?!

And just what do we see emerging from the chrysalis?

The REAL Ellie. On Independence Day no less!

What a way to ROLL. (Sorry, I had to do it.)

Susan

Awesome Ellie!!! You are making amazing progress.

Ellie, I def agree with maybesoph: you can have a friendship with them (that friend you wanted to talk to) just fine!!! You can figure out something else to talk about,  . Doesn't mean it has to be an end to your relationship!!!

Quote from: Roll on July 03, 2018, 06:28:58 PM
The best part of the conversation though... when I sent my younger brother my picture I use as profile, she saw him get it and apparently got jealous and mad at him asking who this random chick was texting him pictures. That made my day so much that a picture of me could trigger a response like that. My brothers reply was just "Uhhhhh, that's my brother." Which somehow him saying brother to that situation makes it even funnier to me.

Damn that's awesome  !!!

Quote from: Roll on July 03, 2018, 10:41:25 PM
Few quick notes...

1) I am officially being stricter about people calling me Ellie and using female pronouns around house no matter how I am presenting. I had this moment of realization... I'm me, no matter what I look like at any given time/how I'm presenting. Cis-women don't say "It's okay to call me Greg" when they aren't wearing makeup and get a short hair cut, so why should it be any different for us?

2) I officially changed my Facebook account over to female name, not that I ever use it. I am officially just 100% out and open. No more closets.

3) I finally finished my capstone project I've been working on for two months at about 10+ hours every day. It has been a total nightmare, but I am a far better programmer for it. So now... I HAVE A TINY BIT OF FREE TIME!

AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! All of it!!!!!!! And congrats for the project!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You go giiiiirl!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Quote from: Roll on July 04, 2018, 02:47:06 PM
Two quick things!

Went to grab last minute stuff at grocery store, I was wearing women's jeans, random unisex t-shirt that is not figure hugging at all (boobs not visible basically), with my hat and earrings and all but was completely unshaven since yesterday. beard not heavy at all at this point, but its still there slightly. (two days growth looks like what 2 hours growth used to look like). AND SOMEONE MAAMED ME.

I was with my sister because she had her moms CC and was covering it, and as we were checking out I started chatting with the cashier for like 10 minutes. Afterwards my sister looked at me and just said "You're just like dad, don't ever tell me you're an introvert again." (My dad is known for striking up conversations with random people everywhere he goes, much to the chagrin of people on a schedule.) But I realized... She is 100% right. I don't think I qualify as an introvert anymore. I definitely used to, extremely so. But now... I don't feel like one, I'm going and dancing at pride, I'm making friends wherever I go, I'm able to confidently hold conversations... it's crazy. Who knew this was all hiding beneath the surface of my anxiety and depression?!

That made me smile SO BAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm SO FREAKIN' HAPPY FOR YOU  !!!!!!!!! You've come such a long way............!!!!!!!!!!!! Now you inspire me 

Awesome Ellie!! Yep, you're no longer an introvert. Same with me! I'm more of an ambivert these days, but I can talk forever if given the right subject & people. Alexa still is pretty quiet around people, but is perfectly happy to have me speak for us.

I'd say you cast off your shell & threw it far into the ocean. Congrats girl!

Welp. Eventful two days even with project over...

To start, my dad and step mom sat down and had a family conversation with everyone about what is going on with her cancer. After it was removed locally and she was deemed healed, they didn't trust it and went down to Mayo. News is... not great. I won't go into details for a few reasons, but it is either nothing at all, or it is very, very bad. Something showed up they don't like at all, but it doesn't make sense they'd be there from this cancer and they are trying to get ahold of her records from years ago to see if she had them then. (Lesions in liver.)

Not dwelling on that right now though, it's still a big question mark.

Moving into today, I hung out with my friend I reconnected with most of the day. Showed him my dad's crazy property, just talked about random stuff, my sister got to meet him, etc. Fun day.

Most annoying thing happened though. After my trying to get them to work with me for almost two months with the stupid website thing my dad suckered me into developing, the place emails me earlier and says "can we start training (in wordpress for the long term maintainence) on monday, dr. xxxxxxx wants to have it up by the 16th." The problem is... I'm going to be New York from the 13th to the 16th. And I am not working on that from NY because they are slow and haven't been keeping up the pace until now. But now I at least have to go to Savannah on Monday to train someone... Fun.

I sold that Brighton suitcase. Only for 180$ but I only paid $15 for it so... you know. $$$$ for nothing.

Lastly, random other thing... I am not a big fan of a lot of recent bands, I mostly stick to my childhood 90s stuff. But I developed a love for a handful of bands from the 2000s, with the most active one being Panic at the Disco. Saw a thing tonight where the frontman/only guy really in the band anymore Brendon Urie came out as Pan. Not sure if he is doing it for publicity or not, hard to say with celebrities, but he also gave a ton of money to some LGBT youth charity stuff the other day so I'm leaning towards legit. If you don't count Miley Cyrus, who is 100% not legit in my opinion, that would make him the most prominent openly pan figure I can think of. (Also, he is pretty hot. )

(Not related to anything else, but also saw Ant Man and the Wasp. Managed to top Thor Ragnarok for outright funniest MCU movie, though Ragnarok was the "better" movie otherwise.)

I NEED OPINIONS!

So in less than a week I will be in New York City, attending my first Broadway show after eating at a really nice restaurant. I have never gone out dressed up before, as I've only really gone out a few times period. But this is the big one... SO WHICH OUTFIT WORKS THE BEST! If the answer is none, that is okay too.  I'm still very self conscious about my upper arms and so was trying to find something to cover that area. My sister recommended a shear/mesh kimono over the dress, she thinks it would look beautiful. But.... honestly I was surprised that I didn't hate the way I looked even with just the dress and no outerwear.

This is my favorite. It's a comfortable utility jacket, but I feel like it has a nice like... Look at me, I can do dressy but I'm mostly casual feel. Which is pretty much who I am, so.


I love the color of this one, but I wouldn't wear this specific piece and would find something in the same color. Too "I just went for a run" and also super hot.


This is the opposite of the previous. I love the look but not the color. The color makes me feel like I'm a 1950s school marm over the dress.


This one is just more about concept for the generic jean jacket look. I like it in theory, but would definitely need a better one. More dinemy looking and probably one of the shorter ones that doesnt go down to waist.


Really surprised how much comfortable I am without shoulder/upper arm cover than I used to be.

Hi Ellie,

How exciting going to your first broadway show!!! I love New York. I have been to a few broadway shows with my wife over the years, but never as Jayne. Have a really great time while you are there.

As for your outfits, I liked the third one and the last one. Both of those stood out to me.

Whatever you choose to wear, I'm sure you will look fantastic.

Hugs,
Jayne

@Roll
Dear Ellie.....
My pick is outfit #3, ... I agree with @Jayne01 the black dress with the light tan sweater....

....and don't feel like you can't take the sweater off either.... you look absolutely great just wearing the dress without a sweater or coat over it... 
Again... you are looking terrific. 
Thank you for treating your readers and followers to you new pictures.

Hugs and well wishes,
Danielle

I especially like what you are wearing in the first picture.  A stole might also be appropriate and nice for a Broadway show, based on what I've seen in the movies.

The sweater is grey unfortunately not tan, just bad color. My sister liked it best, and my step mom liked the first best. I am thinking of trying to find a short white cardigan and combine the two looks.

Quote from: Roll on July 08, 2018, 10:29:30 AM
The sweater is grey unfortunately not tan, just bad color. My sister liked it best, and my step mom liked the first best. I am thinking of trying to find a short white cardigan and combine the two looks.

Ellie
Grey is good !
Danielle

I like the denim jacket but its possibly not right for where your going.  The grey sweater is a good look. 

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The white jacket or the grey sweater. You look great in all of those, though!

Hope you have a great time!!!