I confess I fear losing my new friend as much as I feared losing my old friend to death. I swear... I will do anything I can to make sure they're alright. They're too precious to have something like that happen. I really fear it. I can't bear losing someone like that to cold fate again. I have an older sibling now, and I swear I will make sure they get through things, to the best of my will.
I also confess I've been drunk the last couple of times. Its okay though. Now I have no money, and no means to get booze anyway, and its all gone, so Next time I'll be completely sober again.
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