Hi, my name is Sarah, and I hope this is the beginning of a journey far far too long in the making. I just hope I can make it to the end. I'm not exactly sure what I should say, so I guess I'll just go with facts...  I've known since I was little (4 or so) that I wasn't supposed to be the way I was. To my eternal regret, I ignored that feeling until the pain grew too great and I had to do something... one way or the other.   My family being fundamentalist, I felt I had to be secretive, and began to self medicate(I know!)  I felt though that it was either that or the other thing, and I do want to live, so...  I kept doing that until I ran out of money and had to stop so I could use the "real" identity to get a job and do it right, which took longer than I wanted, but I'm just now coming back around to becoming the REAL me.   Sorry about how this came out, was just kind of a stream of consciousness thing.

Quote from: Sarah1979 on August 09, 2018, 12:22:28 AM
Hi, my name is Sarah, and I hope this is the beginning of a journey far far too long in the making. I just hope I can make it to the end. I'm not exactly sure what I should say, so I guess I'll just go with facts...  I've known since I was little (4 or so) that I wasn't supposed to be the way I was. To my eternal regret, I ignored that feeling until the pain grew too great and I had to do something... one way or the other.   My family being fundamentalist, I felt I had to be secretive, and began to self medicate(I know!)  I felt though that it was either that or the other thing, and I do want to live, so...  I kept doing that until I ran out of money and had to stop so I could use the "real" identity to get a job and do it right, which took longer than I wanted, but I'm just now coming back around to becoming the REAL me.   Sorry about how this came out, was just kind of a stream of consciousness thing.

@Sarah1979
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Hi Sarah 

Welcome to Susan's Place    Glad to have you here, join on in the fun

Hugs

V M

Thank you, I'll do my best, fun isn't going to be happening for quite some time if ever though.

Hello there friend! Welcome to Susan's place!!!
I'm sorry to hear that this is happening to you. Know that one day, with enough work and effort, things will get better. 🙂

Hi @Sarah1979 - Welcome to Susans! So glad you joined! Always good to have more Sarah's on this page (Sarah being the most common name here)!

Hugs Sarah (sarah1972)

When I first came out to my mother, she told me it's what I would have been named had I been born properly. 
Then for the next Christmas she bought me a silver bracelet with my REAL first and middle names engraved on it

Aw~ That's sweet~😊