Quote from: Drexy/Drex on August 10, 2018, 11:19:33 PM
Well apparently the truth will set one free.....
You walked the path and made it, how lovely I hope I can find a wom who will accept me as I am
Your tightrope simile is beautiful and yes I will be careful walking it 😊
It's interesting but I have child hood memories coming back
As we lose our fear and begin to stop suppressing much of the memories of childhood, for me I was mercilessly bullyed and how I survived I do not understand, but as we lose those fears, memories come back. When we become willing to remember we can process the hurt but we can also process the good memories as well, sometimes we throw the baby out with the bathwater.
So we rewind our lives to the beginning, asking "what if I had not been socially programmed", and in that moment of what if, our core gender becomes more clear, and we begin to understand better who we are at core, the child within.
In the forest thread, in the beginning, my own journey is clear on this, the freeing of the she inside, who became once accepted and healed, the whole of me which is sh'e. (They if you like but I like sh'e, it is more accurate physically and in my sexual gender, though They is very accurate socially as well).
She was feral, wild thing, hunted thing, wounded thing. Chained and locked under the stairs, cruelty upon cruelty.
In the healing of she came the healing of my gender, and the understanding of the totality of who I am.
So let the child hood memories flood you, there is so much there for you to find.
You are learning to be a diamond heart warrior of trans, you will be a force for us, but first, you become the child again, and rebuild from the foundations up, living out your truth.
I don't know you very well, but this is my instinct for you. I am assuming our genders are fairly parallel.
Ohhh trans puberty was a bitch for me lol.