Warm Greetings to all you here!
I've been reading this board for some time and decided to join you cause i think i finally found place where i can freely talk about myself without being marked as abnormal.
I was born as a girl and very early i showed some unusual characteristics but as i have liberal parents they didn't pay much attention that i didn't fit into any roles. i had problems during my primary and high school and i simply didn't know how to define myself. i never showed much affection to boys or girls and i never dressed as one. in relationships with people i often got comments that i don't have usual female characteristics which made some of my friends confused but they never asked question.
during last years i finally found out what differs me from the others and i never had problems in accepting that.
also my family accepted this is the most positive way but i still didn't come out to my friends. actually i don't have much of them, cause i'm quite shy and need some time to start feeling relaxed in someones company. so i prefer to spend my time with non- living thing such as books, movies, music and paintings.
i wear different clothes, cause i somehow can't understand something can be strictly male or female in any way. i also changed my name in the one i consider unisex. and after few years i started to think about myself as androgyne, i realize it's completely my state of mind with which i fit in the best way. i'm happy without any gender pressure although sometimes the rest of my family that's more traditional can't understand why i didn't get married and why i don't have children and proper job and why i've chosen art instead of economy for example cause this is not job for woman as they consider it.
but in the end i'm quite happy in my life and with myself although people think i'm a bit strange and weird.
and now some facts about me so you know with who are you talking....
23 years old, in profession of art history, literature, theatre and movie science, i live between Berlin and Zagreb (Croatia) but soon i'm moving permanently to Berlin. i enjoy simple things such as body modification, body art, cactus tea and nature, and in my free time i enjoy all kinds of arts such as photography, drawing, singing and writing short stories and poems.
If you have any questions, feel free to ask!
De profundis
Dorian
