Sorry about my english, i´m ecuadorian, 42, almost 43 years old, married, 2 childs, boy at borning. In this last 4 years i had some "revelations" in my life, tha remember me dreams when I had 6 years old seeing my mom and my sister sitting up in a tree with a kitty, remember that i want to climb to touch and play with the kitty, but i can hear a voice telling me that only girols can touch the kitty. At that time I dont understand why.  I was the nice child, boy overprotected and with problems with another kids, was abused, in not so bad terms, but i had bad memmories from school. Remember at 13 having a newspaper with an advertisement to do boobs implants, and i was feeling so happy that it could be real, but never i tell something to nobody.
I always saw to the girls like an objective to reach, but in the university the only place that i was so happy was between girls. I had a girlfriend there, and it ends 7 years later. Now I have 12 years married and I feel the sky when i use dress and pumps, of course nobody never see me like my another personality, but i really fine when im looks like a girl.
Can said me if I must consider a change? I think in that and looks at me happy... really, I don´t know what i need. Any advice?

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Welcome to Susan's Place. First you need to decide if you want to transition. After that, seeing a gender therapist would be a good place to start as that would help you determine what the transition is to you. Transitioning requires many steps which we can help you with. Probably your interested in HRT and surgery, something often discussed on this site. Should you have questions about developing the proper appearance, there are member who can offer much advice.

Figure out what you don't know and ask. I am sure many will be glad to offer advice.

Hey!

Nobody can tell you if you should do something or not. Only you can decide what you need to be happy. Is it enough for you to crossdress? Feel you need something more? How far you wanna go? I'd suggest you to read people's stories here and look at how different they are and how similar they are. Perhaps you'll find someone who will inspire you, or at least someone who can be compared with your life. Welcome Enjoy your time here

Thanx for all, i suppose if I decide start the transition only i will have you to support me, ill try to meet people like me to no be alone, i think that my main fear is the lonlyness. kisses. ill try to contact al terapist to start

You're definitely not alone here. Feel free to come here, ask questions, express your concerns, etc
Therapst is good start. They can't say what you should do but they show you the door, it's up to you to enter there.