So in about an hour I plan to tell my therapist everything.

The thoughts running through my head are endless and crazy, asking myself so many questions.
Why am I doing this? Am I doing the right thing or just being silly? What about my kids and wife?
Why decide now to do something about it? Am I doing the right thing?

As you can see this is just a small amount of stuff I am feeling and thinking. I am quite excited to get it all off my chest though but still I am freaking out.
Have luckily written everything down but I feel il just cry anyway lol

Wish me luck and thank you for all putting up with me constantly posting about this the last two weeks

Quote from: ShannonH on September 06, 2018, 12:30:20 AM

Wish me luck

Good luck!!!

And, all those questions you have? I think that is where the therapist comes into the picture. They should help you work through exactly those questions.

I am not one for giving advice, but if I were, I would say, Be honest. There is little good that will come from not telling the truth, and the whole truth...

Kate

Hey Shannon!

You can do this, girl, and you'll be fine. Good luck

Hey Shannon

Good luck. Take your time and use these sessions to really and deeply explore who you are.  You will certainly need some iterations to unlock things you've probably tried to hide from yourself (for perfectly good reasons!)

Best!
J

Hope it all went well with your Therapist ...a lot of this stuff can be difficult to talk about...you may be surprised about how much better you feel after unloading it ....it is such a weight to carry around on your own...I hope your therapist can allay your fears and help you with your plans.

Take care

Liz

Hope it goes well Honey.

A good therapist is worth their weight in gold.

Hey!

So, it went really well she was amazing with the whole thing and made me feel really good about it all.
The main thing she wants me to focus on is to try and not to figure everything out and take my time which makes sense because I have felt so drained these past few weeks.

Its such a good feeling to get everything off my shoulders.

She has already put in a referral for me to go see someone who has a larger understanding and training with transgender issues so that is a good thing at which I will be able to get some more help with my feelings and thoughts.

She has also extended and approved another 5 sessions this year so that is awesome, she did however explain I will need to tell my wife this at some point and that is something that scares me.

Thank you all for the support! means the world to me.

I am so glad everything went with the therapist and also that you have a further 5 sessions with her and a referral to a more experienced professional; no disrespect to your present therapist of course.

Hugs

Pamela

You've taken a big step, there will be many more as you continue.  One of them will be to be open with your family.  It isn't a forgone conclusion that problems will arise. 
Sometimes love conquers hate.

Hugs and smiles from a California girl

Shannon, I am glad to hear that your therapist appointment went well.  It gets easier from here, because you have a professional in your corner.