Quote from: Rachel_Christina on September 11, 2018, 01:49:28 AM
Yeah I see what the site does for so many.
I use it very much as a crutch, I'm often away and at my garage and stuff and don't get much time for online stuff.
Sometimes I feel like you are sometimes missed or ignored in the trail of posts. And in my case I often only post when I'm feeling low or needing support. So it just makes it feel worse.
It's weird sometimes I put it down to my crappy way of talking or writing. I make typos and my way of getting things down can be abit backwards.
I guess I'm this way needy because out here in Ireland I have not one trans friend. I have never met a trans person here in Ireland yet.
Sometimes my dad gets me way down still cause he keeps calling me by my old name and crap.
It's so annoying cause he doesn't do it when talking to anyone else.
I feeling a dud for posting this, but again I'm needy. And there's some people here I really look up to and admire :') and some of em are here in the post 
Sweetie, that's what this site is for. To offer a safe haven to those in need of a port in the storm. A place for people to come when they need support and people to lean on when they might not have the strength to keep going by themselves. There is nothing wrong with wanting, or needing that. Nothing at all, okay? That's why Susan set it up, and why it's been going for so long.
You matter, okay? Your feelings matter. Your thoughts, wants, hopes, dreams, desires, heartaches, worries and needs matter. You're as valuable to this site as every other person who comes here. However you express yourself. It isn't "crappy". It takes a lot of courage to be able to even come here. To be able to say anything. So many people keep everything bottled up inside for so long that it burns a hole in them. They may be scared to get things out, scared to deal with people, scared that they may be seen as someone they don't want to be seen as... a whole plethora of things. So many people stand on that clifftop, looking down and wondering "what if". It takes a lot to make that leap, sweetie. So don't ever describe how you express yourself as "crappy".
You, and everyone else who wants to vent, cry, find solace, question, laugh, celebrate, share something in their lives... you are what we are here for. Without you, this site would not exist. You make it what it is.
It's okay to be needy, Rachel. Everyone is, sometimes. It's okay to not want to go through life alone, sweetie. It's okay to want to find others who can share in the things you're going through, and offer their insight on something you may be dealing with. It's okay to want a helping hand when sometimes you feel like things might be getting too rough.
That's what Susan's is. That's what it's always been, and hopefully what it will always be. Strength comes through community, through shared experience. I've lost count of the number of people I've seen here who didn't think they could go on and then found a strength within themselves they didn't know they had. Because they were encouraged to look for it. You have that inside you. Everyone here does. Sometimes we don't immediately see it because of stuff that's going on in our day-to-day lives. The world can bring you to your knees at times. But inside you is the steel to be able to get to your feet and keep going.
I know sometimes people's posts can get missed. But it's not intentional. I wish I had the time, personally, to be able to respond to everyone who is hurting and feeling bad. And needing someone to lean on. I wish that so much. What I will say to anyone who feels like that is that it's not intentional, and it's not done to hurt. You all matter. Every single one of you. Even people reading this who haven't joined yet.
Rachel, never feel bad for posting something, okay? Whatever it is. Your voice is as important as everyone else's. You are valuable. And wanted here, sweetie. You don't have to go through things alone, however much it might feel like it sometimes.
That goes for everyone. *huge group hug*
