Here I am back at the routine at work and nothing is routine. I want to runaround telling everyone about my weekend, I want to shout it down the halls. Most of the people here would just be like, "eh, so? you had a good time." without picking on on how much it means to me.
I did fill in our receptionist and she was, "See, you were all worried about your appearance and broad shoulders and look what happened". So, I got an 'I told you so'. At least she was happy for me
Am I bouncy? Oh yeah. How the heck can I just sit here banging a keyboard with all this bottled up and wanting out? I'll manage. I suppose I'll have to suffer being happy in silence.
bummer note. We found a trigger, hit me hard last night and brought me to tears. I'll not reiterate. Suffice to say, Lori made a comment in passing, jokingly. Logically I knew what she meant and it was fine, nothing untoward about the comment ... BUT ... my brain started screaming in my ears. I started to break down and fall apart. It took over an hour to get turned back around, which I did. While Lori was all worried and consoling and honest about never saying it again, I don't think she quite grasped the intensity of the !!!!!NO!!!!! reverberating in my head.
I know that here, people understand.
No worries. As I said, I am recovered and back to bouncing. Lets get on with the day !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
<- Ya, no, that's not me ...
<-- nope, not it either ...
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