Fat. Ow yes, i hate it. A bear belly homer simson would b proud of. It is all in my head thou, ive been told i look fine. Im a good uk size 12 but desprate to get down a size or two.

I specifically remember looking at my skinny legs at the age of 16 or 17 and thinking they looked or felt fat. They weren't. But I could feel the 'female' fat under the skin and it drove me nuts and I found it a bit disturbing.

I think that was a part of my gender dysphoria that I didn't realize was gender dysphoria. I was aware of how boys' skin and limbs felt at that age, and they did not feel like mine. There's a different feel and texture to female skin that is thinner and has more fat under it. Even though I wasn't fat I felt like I was wearing a fat suit. (Which technically is sort of true... there is much more body fat on an average female body weight for weight, and usually all located under the skin.)

The T has changed that now, I have different texture skin and the 'female' fat is disappearing from under it. Unfortunately it's deciding to shift off the butt and legs and add itself on my belly, meaning I went from "normal" to having a bit of a stomach suddenly lol. It has to go, and it's taking a lot of exercise to get rid of it. But it still makes me feel bad until it is gone.

At this time of my life: no, not at all. I'm at a healthy weight for my height and I do acknowledge that my stomach isn't flat and that my thighs and butt have some considerable soft roundness to them, while my chest and arms are quite lacking in the fat department. But it doesn't bother me and I feel normal weight. On some days I even feel thin.

However I have struggled with weight issues and eating disorders before, so I used to feel fat at the same weight as I am now, and even at times I weighed less. My weight has bounced around quite a lot over the years, but mostly I've been within the healthy range. This is the first time I'm actually happy with my weight, in the sense that it's just alright with it and it doesn't really matter much.

However I do feel a little bit of an internal stress that I really want to stay within the healthy weight range. But I'm trying not to think about it too much. Being on T didn't change my body shape or fat distribution much at all. I was always still noticably curvy, and it took me forever to eventually become okay with that.

Yeah I feel a bit fat. I'm trying to lose weight but I'm not good at that lately lol
I may wanna do fat transfer to fill my boobs with (very stubborn) fat. That's a dream of mine to have natural fatty breasts lol...

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