I get depressed when I think about all that I missed out on( my childhood,middle school years and my teen years).  This topic is one of the reasons that I am on antidepressants.   

Look forward! Look towards all the fun you are going to have now!

I try to not think about my childhood

Quote from: Alexagon on December 24, 2015, 06:58:17 PM
And by that I mean do things you were never able to do as a boy, mainly with clothes.

I've always wanted to wear super girly dresses and skirts and stuff but now at 22 that would obviously be super weird. It can make it difficult to decide what style I can actually pull off properly.

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Whats stopping you? I'm 43 and wear super girly dresses. There is no rule saying you can't. Also, why look back with regret? I don't regret one day of those 43 years... because they made the person I am to today and I love being me.

Quote from: Alexagon on December 24, 2015, 06:58:17 PM
And by that I mean do things you were never able to do as a boy, mainly with clothes.

I've always wanted to wear super girly dresses and skirts and stuff but now at 22 that would obviously be super weird. It can make it difficult to decide what style I can actually pull off properly.

I think there's plenty of differences between the typical girl's upbringing and the typical boy's.  It wasn't JUST the clothes, though they play a big part in our self identification.  I began transition in '02.  I've had plenty of time to integrate, get comfortable, and reflect.  Living as a female is old hat for me... but what never goes away is the recollection of a boy's childhood that I wish wasn't so.  It saddens me to be that "late starter".  It sucks that I never had all the things that every other 2-15 year old had.  And regardless of whether I can "pull it off" or not, I choose to indulge and embrace whatever rendition of that youth I can, even if that turns a few heads or faces any scorn.
Some say things akin to "live in the now instead of the past", etc.... but I choose to make my "now" whatever life I want, including the joys of what might have been.

I think what part of what I'm trying to say is, the whole "acting your age" thing is just another form of "fitting in".  Compliance.  Folding to cultural norms.  I'm the rebel.  I say your life is what you make it.  I say if you need to be that kid all over again, this time in the right gender presentation, so be it.  Have at it, fear not, let no one press you into compliance and norm, and just LIVE.  The whole "I'm too old for that stuff" is just another way for the world to tell you what you should be, what you should look like, and make your decisions for you.

With youth comes beauty, innocence, joy, laughter, less stress and more smiles. <3

Quote from: Danielle M on October 09, 2018, 11:56:29 AM
I get depressed when I think about all that I missed out on( my childhood,middle school years and my teen years).  This topic is one of the reasons that I am on antidepressants.   

I would agree with that first sentence. I regret not having the chance to do all the things I might have if I had grown up female.

Alexxagon, Yes, you, like me and most of us on this forum missed out on growing up as our preferred gender and being treated as ourselves. But you are recognizing who you are at the age of 22–you have a life ahead of you to live as you wish. Live it! We can't relive what's gone—but you have ample choices about your future. What will you be saying when you look back at your life 22 and 44 years from now?  I hope you have the opportunity to wear all of the party dresses and fun outfits of your dreams! Nancy