Got excited and forgot dosage rule in previous post.
Anywho.........................
TEN MONTH UPDATETen months. Wow.
So... to get right to it!
HRT Related
- Boobs new growth spurt for sure. Nipples tender. Exciting.
I fill out my bralettes and sports bras fine, probably about a decent B now? But still not in proportion to torso/weight b any means. Though most pictures I pad slightly (like not full on size increase padding, like the inserts from other sports bras or bralettes, i just usually toss in one or two extra for shape)
- Well, so much for sexual function. Even with... uhhh... a helping hand so to speak, i have a very hard time getting and maintaining erections, and male orgasms are virtually impossible. Trying to get myself more towards female orgasm mindset, and was almost there a few times but i keep scaring myself off it.
- My figure is way, way, way more feminine. Hard to see with fat, but like when I lay down or look in mirror nude, you can clearly see the hourglass curvature forming, just being thrown off by remaining male pattern fat (love handles ;x).
Non HRT Related
- I am full time. I mean. I really am! I came out to school despite the stupid name change limitations and even though it still says my deadname on my online class profile. Whatever, im done waiting. Any calls I get as John are getting corrected to Ellie!
- Started laser at a new place here in Atlanta using the ND-YGG. It... it is way more powerful. The technician definitely was more thorough too. I could feel the heat unlike the other laser, smell the burning. She went out of her way to get individual hairs, took a lot longer (45 minutes vs like 15) for a cheaper per session cost, felt a bit like electrolysis lite. I definitely had more effects after (some scabbing and a bit of swelling) which I never had with the other laser, so I take that as a good sign its working better. Unfortunately she also said that in her estimation I'm not looking at another few months, but maybe a lot longer, more like a year, because it is thick and it is dark (and the previous technician maybe wasnt doing as full effect as she could have been perhaps? I dunno). But it also sounded like she expects less touch ups overtime afterward with the effect of this laser. maybe its just a matter of relative thoroughness. Either way... face is so much smoother every time I do anything.
- Transplants coming in nicely, I'm at about 4 months out from them. Darker and fuller everyday. Still short. Still looks like crap. Still visible bald spots. But its way better, and this should only be at most a third of final density if even that.
- Voice I've slacked on. I dont have a bad one, but I get tired quickly and forget to use it when not in public.
- Ugh. Weight. Weight has continued to be stalled. Weighed in at 209 last week. 211 this week. It will fluctuate between 205 and 215 constantly and I don't know what to do. I eat well. I have been walking a ton. I'm just... I'm frustrated.
Events in my life:
Girlfriend thing (my gorgeous Lexi~~) is going amazing. I am in love. Meeting her mom in 2 weeks, and she already met mine.
Her dogs love me, so I also win the pet vote. I just... god it is amazing.
So this weekend was Atlanta Pride. The two of us went and had a blast. On Saturday we walked almost 10 miles!!! We took part in the trans pride march/rally. It was really cool to see so many trans people in one place, like literally more than I could imagine existed total.
At the end of teh route there were some religious protesters with signs like "Ask me why you're going to hell". I wanted to run up to him and say "Who told you about that cyclist I left for dead the other night?!". But I just had a big smile on face, as friendly as could be and yelled repeatedly "GOD IS LOVE!" instead. It seemed to make them mad I wasn't being openly hostile. One dude did a snipping motion at me, I think that was legally a threat.
The festival itself was really fun. We saw a cabaret show that was incredibly entertaining. Alexis bought me the greatest mug ever. Top right corner of image. Other is my shirt I bought and am wearing still.
The parade on sunday lasted 3 and a half hours!!!!! Afterward we went and got lunch at this really cool place called Ponce City Market, at a restaurant called Botiwalla that is indian street food. They had tamarind glazed spare ribs that are the best thing I've ever eaten in my life.
So yeah. Was amazing weekend, even if I'm sore as can be and want to sleep for three days.
