Hi Billie
I am kind as new here as you are, and I am even much older than you are. And I also worked in health care (surgical side), and I also had no idea what was going on with me, and who I was. My marriage fell apart because I did not know why I was so very angry an abusive (luckily only verbally). I realized a few years ago what was wrong, and I was able to leave my anger behind. I am now on my path to become a woman, I am still struggling, but mostly because everything moves so slow. But I am happy now, and look forward into a bright and colorful future!
I hope you will see this future pretty soon!