It was all so very casual and no streamers or balloons were released.

I asked for blood tests and she asked me what kind..i just said hormone levels, liver function and
whatever is needed before hormone treatment.
Back tonorrow for that...hope they take correct tests. I'm not sure what to ask for.

It will be 2 weeks or so before I get an appointment, which will probably be 18 months or more away.

My anxiety levels weren't good this morning as my wife was in very bad mood with kids and I! Set me off on a low note. I also spent last night worrying about my son not having a 'dad' any more and if I was really selfish.

Many of you have probably been at this point...at least I'm official on NHS now instead of just private therapists and a select few

Quote from: Sarah77 on November 01, 2018, 05:00:38 AM
It was all so very casual and no streamers or balloons were released.

I asked for blood tests and she asked me what kind..i just said hormone levels, liver function and
whatever is needed before hormone treatment.
Back tonorrow for that...hope they take correct tests. I'm not sure what to ask for.

It will be 2 weeks or so before I get an appointment, which will probably be 18 months or more away.

My anxiety levels weren't good this morning as my wife was in very bad mood with kids and I! Set me off on a low note. I also spent last night worrying about my son not having a 'dad' any more and if I was really selfish.

Many of you have probably been at this point...at least I'm official on NHS now instead of just private therapists and a select few

Hi Sarah,
                  That is massive news!. The option of a private prescription for hormones is always there as well as you know. HRT can really help with the burden of being gender misaligned.
Children & wives are also very important as you pointed out. Being there for your son really matters a lot.

I found the biggest point of agony for me going on HRT & easing off the brakes on my feminine self was not providing a proper father for my young sons.

In the end I know what a boy is and I can still demonstrate what is expected of them as they become competent men.

If there was a better way of managing my gender misalignment I would do it, but allowing feminine expression & HRT keeps me functioning & positive.

Your story is big news for me - I wish you steady & positive travelling with your family.

Kindest regards, Kirsten.[emoji258]

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Well done in making the first steps... and welcome to the waiting list.

I too have the feeling of guilt that I am being selfish to my daughter. I've got an appointment booked for 9th November to ask for my bloods to be done before self-medicating... I am not starting on hormones but with Dutasteride... I am hoping it will take the edge off while waiting. But I will discuss with my GP about self-medicating hormones too but I don't want to rush things too quickly because I have a serious lack of funds at the moment and need to find a new job. Once I am more financially solvent, then it will be easier to self-medicate... having not dressed in over 8 years, I still need a wardrobe and a wig. I will work on that after I get Christmas out of the way.

But well done in getting into the system... it takes a bit of courage to open up to your GP and ask for a referral.

love
Alice

thanks so much...a mixture of excitement and nerves at some really hard discussions ahead over the years.

If there was any doubt of my trans nature, the wait in the reception gave me an obvious sign...I spent most of it thinking how lovely the receptionist's shoes and top were   

I've no idea where this will end up, but I've reached the point I don't care a jot what people think about me, or if I'm a freak..I really care about what people think of my family still though. I worry my job will become untenable, not for me, but for the security it proves them etc..

Will you go the Gender GP route, its working for me . My 2 year wait for GIC first interview is nearly over , it should be early next year but you know how these things go. Anyways well done on taking first steps, may the rest of your journey be as easy.

Congratulations! Brilliant news!

I had to see a psychiatrist as my GP refused to refer me, but 45 mins with the psychiatrist and he referred me.  Still got over 2 years to wait but at least I'm in the system.  Got an appointment to see a gender therapist in december/january so looking forward to that too! x

Quote from: davina61 on November 01, 2018, 11:40:34 AM
Will you go the Gender GP route, its working for me . My 2 year wait for GIC first interview is nearly over , it should be early next year but you know how these things go. Anyways well done on taking first steps, may the rest of your journey be as easy.

very possibly. I've already been back and forth with them. Getting my bloods done. Then it's a massive leap to taking the 'blue pill' - one which I need to discuss with my wife. A big jump from being transgender and actively transitioning in regards to my relationship with my wife.

Quote from: VickyS on November 01, 2018, 12:24:59 PM
Congratulations! Brilliant news!

I had to see a psychiatrist as my GP refused to refer me, but 45 mins with the psychiatrist and he referred me.  Still got over 2 years to wait but at least I'm in the system.  Got an appointment to see a gender therapist in december/january so looking forward to that too! x

great! i know it just seems so far away. I do think I need a year to prepare mentally, but 2 years..that's long.

Well, yes 2 years is a long time but each GIC has different waiting times. I have been referred to Nottingham.

Putting a positive spin on it though it gives me time to almost complete electrolysis on my face and grow another 12 inches on my hair making it just over 20 inches (all being well), but most importantly if i still feel as strong about transitioning as i do now then  i know it's for me. If i 'change my mind' in that time then it wasn't for me if that makes sense.

Also I can hopefully sort out my disastrous relationship in that time!

V x

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Also, I have a double whammy in that as well as accepting i am trans i have also had to come to terms with my sexuality. I came out as bi about 17 years ago but last year i accepted that I'm actually closer to a heterosexual woman.  I'm still getting my head around it but my attraction to cis-women is virtually zero now.

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Quote from: VickyS on November 01, 2018, 03:18:11 PM
Also, I have a double whammy in that as well as accepting i am trans i have also had to come to terms with my sexuality. I came out as bi about 17 years ago but last year i accepted that I'm actually closer to a heterosexual woman.  I'm still getting my head around it but my attraction to cis-women is virtually zero now.

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Will probably make it easier to find love..wider pool of potential suitors!

Quote from: Sarah77 on November 01, 2018, 05:28:18 PM
Will probably make it easier to find love..wider pool of potential suitors!

Hmmm. possibly.  Either very open minded cis-men or trans women.  I can see dating being a nightmare (as it always was) but to try and avoid the trans-fetishists that just want a quick hookup.  I'm really attracted to feminine gay men though but I very much doubt they would be attracted to me! 

Not easy this life is it? lol

Quote from: VickyS on November 02, 2018, 03:58:47 AM
Hmmm. possibly.  Either very open minded cis-men or trans women.  I can see dating being a nightmare (as it always was) but to try and avoid the trans-fetishists that just want a quick hookup.  I'm really attracted to feminine gay men though but I very much doubt they would be attracted to me! 

Not easy this life is it? lol

i know. I'm married..and no matter what happens to my sexuality on hormones, I'd doubt I'd ever leave. However, my wife could very possibly leave me.

My experience in trans-friendly bars and online makes me think men interested in us have lost the art of romance. 
The closest I got to charm recently was a man slurring 'yooouu iisss a bootiful wommmenn.' just before slumping forward on to my shoulder and falling into a drunken stupor.

Quote from: Sarah77 on November 02, 2018, 08:34:54 AM
i know. I'm married..and no matter what happens to my sexuality on hormones, I'd doubt I'd ever leave. However, my wife could very possibly leave me.

My experience in trans-friendly bars and online makes me think men interested in us have lost the art of romance. 
The closest I got to charm recently was a man slurring 'yooouu iisss a bootiful wommmenn.' just before slumping forward on to my shoulder and falling into a drunken stupor.

Oh my god! that's awful, but I think you are right and it's a shame as I really need to trust someone before letting them near me sexually.  It's going to be interesting, that's for sure.  Actually it will probably be quite boring. 

I have a battle on my hands at the moment with my wife who is constantly pestering me for sex but I just can't.  Last time I tried it was traumatic. It seems since the realisation that I am a girl inside, I just can't perform as a man and it makes my head spin thinking about all those transwomen who can!  I have nothing but respect for them as I just can't do it. 

I got my letter of confirmation from the GIC today... just to warn you it took a little over a month just to get the confirmation letter that I've been referred. No indication as to how long for the first appointment though.

So don't panic if you don't hear straight away from the GIC.

love
Alice

Quote from: Alice (nym) on November 02, 2018, 07:23:23 PM
I got my letter of confirmation from the GIC today... just to warn you it took a little over a month just to get the confirmation letter that I've been referred. No indication as to how long for the first appointment though.

So don't panic if you don't hear straight away from the GIC.

love
Alice

Thanks Alice..GP guessed 2 weeks. So a month? I move house in a month, so thats a tricky situation!
I also don't think the doc tested all the right things with my bloods. As much a learning experience for my GP as me