Its been almost 3 years since I have become a transgender female. Life has been amazing and I reflect back to how I have changed. My looks, behavior, and attitudes have evolved as I look at my video made before and early after my transition and my facebook. I have laughed at some of my past behavior which my female friends have corrected, especially learning to sit with my legs together or crossed, a female walk that is erect, manners that respect others feelings and culture, these changes, all feminine, but also good for health and amicable relationships.

I continue to live a very healthy life with daily exercise of at least one hour, and enjoy meeting and engaging new friends at public and private functions. I look at my new body and still cannot believe I do not have male parts and now genuinly look female. I have a buddhist life belief to enjoy the present and do something new each day.

I still remember some of my male behavior and its agressive nature. Its hard to eliminate male behavior ingrained in my persona after 60 plus years as a male. However, that agressive nature has diminished and now rarely raises its head. This male agressive traits are clearly visible in the posts on this forum as it consists mostly of early transitioners who are evolving and more mature transitioners who have been male longer. Embrace this diminishing agression, and enjoy the inner peace it brings.

I am blessed to live in Thailand, a vacation and transgender paradise. I have embraced their culture of buddhism and am fully literate in the Thai langauge. I give back to this wonderful community with my charity foundation and good deeds.

I am proud to be a TG female. The west have come a long way, in changing laws in 3 years,  but have failed to win the hearts of the people. The Thais have few laws protecting lgbt but laws are not needed if you have the heart of the people supporting you. Maybe, its the western culture to want everything in one lifetime and I feel this agression has given rise to more hate from cis men and women. Enjoy the victories and maybe its time to step back and smell the roses.

I wish you all a wonderful journey and remember we are blessed to live two lives in one. Stay positive and show your love for life through your daily actions.

Hi,
   I am very happy for the peace you have attained. Three years ago (next week), I was just joining Susan's, with a major journey ahead of me. I have since accomplished physically becoming a woman, and now the 'bod' matches the 'noggin'. (Or is it drapes matches the curtains?) Anyway, my aggression is gone as well. Oh, that is wonderful, isn't it. I look back on the tremendous jerk I was at times, as a 'guy.' Now, I can only manage being mildly annoying. (I know, I shouldn't sell myself short, right?) It is a peaceful feeling being one person instead of a person with two halves, constantly battling for control. I am thankful for being trans because I like this (potentially mildly annoying) person I've become and without being trans, I wouldn't be myself. Perhaps it is due to the culture difference that you embrace being a trans woman a bit more easily than myself. It is a little spookier here in the US. Also, I am not ashamed of being trans, but I want to emphasize me being a woman moving through life spreading a little annoyance here and there. lol It is very cool that you help others with your foundation. Awesome! I do feel for those who are struggling, perhaps just starting out. I will never forget those intense dysphoric feelings. I guess I could have moved on from Susan's but if there is a chance of offering someone a little something to stay positive, I don't think I'll move on. What's better than smelling the roses? Sharing smelling the roses with someone else. (Was that annoying?)

   Oh, I always wanted to ask you the origin of your member name, Warlockmaker.

Hi Moni, I also feel the same way,  as you, about staying on Susans to help others. I try and show the positives of being TG female and to underdstand the various phases we go thru mentally as we evolve. I am still evolving.

My member name Warlockmaker was chosen because my fathers family name is Celtic and dates back over 1000 years. Back then we were regatded as Warlocks and Witches. One witch is in the English history by name.

Wishing you a continued amazing journey.