I am hoping for some feedback on what you all think about this. For those of you who have read any of my postings in my thread Gabrielle Vs the cliff, you know that I am struggling with how to make my relationship with my wife work. It's been many months since there was intimacy and sadly I'm a physically needy person. I crave touch and closeness. I don't necessarily have to have sex all the time but I need to relieve that pressure sometimes.
Do you all think that fantasizing about me being full femme and being physically satisfied by women or even men that are obviously not my wife for the purpose of masturbation is the same as cheating on my wife? I pride myself on my fidelity but there are times when I need that fantasy and to feel like I could be in that role of the submissive woman with a dominant partner. It's hard to picture my wife in that role with how she has reacted since my coming out. So I have been using other made up fantasy people as my dominants. Honestly though, I have felt guilty afterwards and it doesn't seem right that I should be guilty about finding some way to feel pleasure.
Any thoughts or suggestions? Love and faith.
Gabrielle