My parents told me if I had been a girl I would have been named Krystal, or Chrissy. Today, Im examining the facts and trying to decide if i , in fact, was born a girl. As a man, im quite masculine. Well, i mean, im not feminine. Im just a dude with no muscle tone no matter how much i work out, i dont have an adams apple and i cant grow a beard. But, its all been an act. Im only trying to be what im supposed to be and ive done that so well that i never questioned if thats what im supposed to be. My sudden awareness of things ive supressed to protect my male ego have left me wondering, who am i really? I distinctly remember being someone else, when i was very young. The person I am today is nothing like that person.
  I have 3 daughters. Ive always told them the key to life is to : 1. Know yourself. Who are you what makes you tick? Find out.
2. Love yourself. You are who you are and nothing at all could be wrong with that. 3. Be yourself. Show the person you know and love yourself to be and all the right things will come your way.

Have i been robbed of that? Was i being kept from myself?

I really need to know and I need to find the strength to fix it before its too late.

Thats why Im here.

Quote from: Krystalorkenny on November 27, 2018, 12:03:14 PM
My parents told me if I had been a girl I would have been named Krystal, or Chrissy. Today, Im examining the facts and trying to decide if i , in fact, was born a girl. As a man, im quite masculine. Well, i mean, im not feminine. Im just a dude with no muscle tone no matter how much i work out, i dont have an adams apple and i cant grow a beard. But, its all been an act. Im only trying to be what im supposed to be and ive done that so well that i never questioned if thats what im supposed to be. My sudden awareness of things ive supressed to protect my male ego have left me wondering, who am i really? I distinctly remember being someone else, when i was very young. The person I am today is nothing like that person.
  I have 3 daughters. Ive always told them the key to life is to : 1. Know yourself. Who are you what makes you tick? Find out.
2. Love yourself. You are who you are and nothing at all could be wrong with that. 3. Be yourself. Show the person you know and love yourself to be and all the right things will come your way.

Have i been robbed of that? Was i being kept from myself?

I really need to know and I need to find the strength to fix it before its too late.

Thats why Im here.

@Krystalorkenny
Dear Krystal or Kenny:
Thank you for introducing yourself and for following the LINK to come here that I provided for you in my Welcome Message on the first thread that you posted on "Intersex Talk" ...

Your introductions posting is certainly very interesting and informative.   
Now, more members will be aware of your arrival and you will experience more give and take of thoughts, opinions and questions that may be of a help to you and others.

Again, Welcome to Susan's Place,
Best Wishes, and enjoy your time here on the Forums.
Danielle

Hi Kristalorkenny 

Welcome to Susan's Place    Glad to have you here, join on in the fun

Hugs

V M

Hello, Krystalorkenny,  very nice to meet you.  These are all very good questions in your intro.  Last year, I started going to a gender therapy specialist who helped me answer many of the questions you pose.  I'm not suggesting you need therapy of any kind but just that I learned a lot about my true identity after a year or so and I'm still learning more. It has helped me define myself.  I wouldn't be where I am today without this help.

Anyways, I'm glad you're reaching out. That's always a good place to start.  I look forward to hearing more about you.  Thanks for sharing.

Susan R🌷