It's late or early morning it's 3:35, and I decided to get up then take a hot bath.
It was in that moment that I came to a realization, and I want to give a back story.The last few weeks, I have been numb, and the only way to describe it is a automatic life machine. I get up and go to work then I get home and try to relax, but then before I know it again, I look over at the clock and I realize I have to get up to rinse and repeat this cycle.It felt like this morning I broke the cycle, and I thought to myself this. Is transitioning the time to make mistakes, and can I take all the time I need to adjust to my new role?

Of course you can!

I look back at and read all the turmoil and strange feelings and angst that I had and wonder how I got through it all. I also look back and wonder what all the bother was!

It takes time. Let your mind and your body adjust. Explore your thoughts and feelings, maybe write a journal and note your secret thoughts, learn from them and build a lovely life.

It does get easy and as I said - I forget what it was all about. I'm just a very normal, happy woman and you are as well - you are just blossoming into it

Quote from: Coffeedrew on November 30, 2018, 04:25:54 AM
Is transitioning the time to make mistakes, and can I take all the time I need to adjust to my new role?

The decision to transition must not be rushed. You must make a careful evaluation of your situation and if the need to transition is overwhelming, then proceed as planned. Many of us try doing things that are easily reversible and then see how it goes. Once you have surgery, then reversing the procedure is next to impossible if you expect to return to your previous state. As with all surgeries there are nerves that are cut and even though some of these grow back, they never seem to function as well as previously. Even HRT for a year or two can cause some changes that cannot be easily reversed.

We have all heard stories of the MTF who detransitioned because it took to much time and effort to get dressed for the day. I don't know how true this story is, but this must be the worst reason to detransition. We transition to relieve gender dysphoria. The alignment of our inner self with our physical body is extremely comforting.

If you carefully think things through, often with the help of professional counselors, you can avoid mistakes. The only mistake I made is delaying my transition until later in life.

Whatever decision you make, only you must live with the consequences. So, be careful, but know yourself and how you want to live your life accepting all the pluses and minuses of transition.

Thanks for both replys.  So big picture, take my time and enjoy the learning process, and if things go bad  slow down or get out.

I do want to add no regrets yet. What I think I need is a friend.

Quote from: Coffeedrew on November 30, 2018, 08:59:01 AM
Thanks for both replys.  So big picture, take my time and enjoy the learning process, and if things go bad  slow down or get out.

I do want to add no regrets yet. What I think I need is a friend.

@Coffeedrew
Dear Drew:
Perhaps not physically hugging you and holding your hand, but you certainly have FRIENDS here on the Forums.
We are here to lend an ear and a shoulder to lean on when you are having difficulties and we will rejoice with you in your good times... 
Your forums friends are your biggest fans and we are all rooting for your success.

As you feel so led please continue to keep your threads updated so we can be "with you" on your journey.
Hugs and well wishes,
Danielle

  That made my day!

If you need friends I think transitioning isn't the way to go about  it. It is a total crap shoot how things will go socially. Better to do what you can to make friends before you transition.

Even though I have, family, social media, co-workers. I spent years being antisocial and shy because I feel I was living a lie to everyone. I still like to interact with people in person.I know it is kind of a weird time to want friends.

I became more outgoing as I went fulltime and socially transitioned.  On the (dubious but popular) Meyer-Briggs scale I went from Introvert to Extrovert.

Quote from: Coffeedrew on November 30, 2018, 02:00:50 PM
Even though I have, family, social media, co-workers. I spent years being antisocial and shy because I feel I was living a lie to everyone. I still like to interact with people in person.I know it is kind of a weird time to want friends.

This would be me before transition as well.

Quote from: Maid Marion on November 30, 2018, 01:40:13 PM
If you need friends I think transitioning isn't the way to go about  it. It is a total crap shoot how things will go socially. Better to do what you can to make friends before you transition.

I actually made quite a few new friends during and after social transition.  I did this sort of deliberately, by seeking out a welcoming and accepting church compatible with my personal spiritual beliefs and practices (Unitarian Universalist, in my case).  The social life associated with this group provided new acquaintances, many of whom became friends, including my two BFFs.

Some old friends also came along.  None of these were friends of my ex-spouse, but were folks I knew through my own activities, hobbyists from before transition.  Skills in the hobby counted for far more than my changing gender presentation.