Oh yay :-) .....there you are Sonja, and friends. Glad to hear back from you. Wasn't sure if I was going to....since this is now an old thread, I know I should start a new one. But frankly I find this forum kinda awkward to use, sorry I don't mean to complain about it ...cause I am truly grateful, as this is an invaluable resource, that I am most appreciative of, and I'm sure it's just a normal learning curve I need to get over, not unlike most other forums........I do plan on figuring out how to use this site better at some point.... would like to update my name to Karma....and add a picture and all that.....at some point......anywho......I was very nauseous about 2 hours after I took it the first time.....but that passed completely within a day or two.....then of course the drop of libido came within a week or two, which was a good thing, cause I was getting out of control with my crossdressing..... life's a balance, and through time, I had lost my balance more and more, as my wife become more and more accepting of my feminine behaviors.......in a way, I feel cured......which is kind of wrong to say, cause being transgender surely isn't an affliction, it's a blessing. However, HRT has so far, helped me to regain my balance, which is awesome. I now know for sure that I'm on the right path, as far as taking HRT .......as far as Transitioning...... IDK.......I know I want to. .....but it's surely complicated as u all know, mostly with work and kids .....but I'm taking "baby steps" I came out to my oldest kids....and mother.....(Super awkward) lol ......and I switched jobs at work.....I was a "maintenance man" lol and I just knew that wouldn't work.....I mean have you ever heard of a " maintenance woman" lol......I haven't....it's a dirty job......it was a great job though..... just I found a better one within the same company.....now I drive a forklift.....it's better in many ways.... I don't have any idea how the hell I'm supposed to do this....I mean with having several kids (4 with no. 5 otw lol) but so far i figure the best thing to do is to take it one step at a time .... little by little..... instead of wearing pants to hide my shaved legs I've been walking around the house in shorts.....and the kids have all seen my painted toe nails......one step at a time, one day at a time...... anyway....after the famous libido drop, the next thing I noticed within a couple weeks was how slow my facial hair is growing, no more five o clock shadow......yay ! Now at 7 weeks in....I'm noticing Subtle emotional effects.....ive cried several times at movies that usually wouldn't make me cry so much .....I watched the Disney movie "UP" a week ago with my kids.....and I jus couldn't stop crying......I had to walk away.....lol.....then last night ...."bridge to terabithia"....(both must see films) so yeah ....have certainly had mood swings....and what I would call "having a moment" over slightly trivial ->-bleeped-<-....lol ..... definitely had hot flashes....or so it seemed....so yeah, that's where I'm at. Currently I'm having a hard time trying to figure out how to transition, and raise my son. I have one boy......he is five years old. And another one on the way.......and when he saw my toenails, of course he said, "I want to paint my nails too" idk what to say to him. ...still working on that one.....I don't think there is a one- size- fits all solution here.....I mean there is no handbook for this you know so.....and today he tells me he wants to grow his hair out and be a girl.... straight up.........and i don't know what to say to him, I know I can't tell him "no".....that can cause "glamorization" which could make him want it more....so....idk....and believe me, aside from him having three sisters around him almost constantly, I've done my best to raise him like a boy, and do boy things with him, and show him that boys have fun too. So.....yeah..... anyway..,.so good to hear from you again Sonja....I've tried to connect with you on here, to message you or see what u post about.....but I guess, being a new member.....I'm still blocked from those privileges.......so please do keep in touch......take care
